Hey (:
Hmm... what can i say? Better than i expected (: Well, waking up was a chore for today. I didn't feel like it, guess i didn't sleep enough. Well, at least not enough for how much i've been sleeping for the past few days! HAHA (:
So, woke up and made my way to School for choir practice. It was kinda fun hahahas. Mr Foong came so he literally 'taught me how to teach' LOL. Then he 'taught me how to conduct'. Some of the interesting stuff :P And the choir was cooperative, although freaking noisy at some points but oh well i didn't get pissed off so thats good! (:
Then i hung out with Kian Hwee and Andrew to lunch and then i went home. Took a super long nap until now, and i'm kinda feeling.... weird? Hahas, maybe its cause i'm alone at home and i've nothing to do...
Sigh, and its not too good. I cried just now, again. Well, i guess its natural that she comes back into my thoughts when i've nothing to do right? And yea i'll just cry... Its like... sigh. Thinking back to how it all started and all, i wish i could turn back time... everything was just so sweet... I want to confess to her, again. Hahas (: I want her to confess to me too, again. (: I want everything to happen again, and i'll make it so much nicer.... i think i might cry again tonight... Sigh.
Going over to andrew's house to camp. Should be able to enjoy myself. Bye.
Quote : I miss you, do you miss me?
30.7.10
Close your eyes.
Hey (:
Today was okay. School lesson was freaking fun though. Had hell lot of fun and laughter with my D class mates and i was totally shagged just purely by laughing and joking around. It was super fun, hell of a time man. Friday was one special day, in a different way than it used to be.. (:
Problems were fixed and i had choir after school. What can i say? It was fucked up. No not because you guys suck TKchoir (: Its other reasons, other uhm.. how to put this, NOT WORTH MENTIONING ? Yea, thats it. So i shan't say more.
Had to conduct and its getting more and more comfortable. I guess i just needa improve my dynamic hinting strokes and be more confident with the moves i make (: If not, i guess i shall stop posting here. There aren't much things to post about and i'm getting more and more lazy to. Hahas, i MIGHT stop :P Bye! (:
Quote : Hold my hand.
Today was okay. School lesson was freaking fun though. Had hell lot of fun and laughter with my D class mates and i was totally shagged just purely by laughing and joking around. It was super fun, hell of a time man. Friday was one special day, in a different way than it used to be.. (:
Problems were fixed and i had choir after school. What can i say? It was fucked up. No not because you guys suck TKchoir (: Its other reasons, other uhm.. how to put this, NOT WORTH MENTIONING ? Yea, thats it. So i shan't say more.
Had to conduct and its getting more and more comfortable. I guess i just needa improve my dynamic hinting strokes and be more confident with the moves i make (: If not, i guess i shall stop posting here. There aren't much things to post about and i'm getting more and more lazy to. Hahas, i MIGHT stop :P Bye! (:
Quote : Hold my hand.
29.7.10
I guess i'm moving on.
Hey. (:
Today was fairly okay. Well, not everything. Some people just had to go ahead and open his/her mouth too big and end up screwing other people's situation up. Oh well, i guess thats the reason why i detest some people. Anyway.
Lessons were okay. Had a re-test for Pure Geog after school, and i lemme bet with you 100% that i'm going to fail. For sure, for sure and more 'for-sure's. Seriously man. How is anyone going to score without studying a single shit and then attempting a whole paper on Coasts??? Impossible. My fault i guess, but it doesn't matter its over and i don't give a shit about that anyway. Just have to study harder next time.
Voice class was quite decent, my teacher is pumping me up for the exams... and i still haven't registered. What the damn. Theres like puny little time to do so and its so damn irritating. Everyday its stay back then stay back then stay back then stay back. Nothing seems to go right this days.
Oh well, i guess i did have laughs and some real funny shit with some of my friends. And teaching Sarah and Maisarah Math is like a choreeee :P Hahahas! They just keep screaming on and on about how hungry they are! Gosh! LOL. (:
Anyways, shall be off to rest and all now. I'm really tired with quite a naggy headache that has been persistently hagging me for freaking 1 week now. God i hate my life.
Bye.
Quote : More than words.
Today was fairly okay. Well, not everything. Some people just had to go ahead and open his/her mouth too big and end up screwing other people's situation up. Oh well, i guess thats the reason why i detest some people. Anyway.
Lessons were okay. Had a re-test for Pure Geog after school, and i lemme bet with you 100% that i'm going to fail. For sure, for sure and more 'for-sure's. Seriously man. How is anyone going to score without studying a single shit and then attempting a whole paper on Coasts??? Impossible. My fault i guess, but it doesn't matter its over and i don't give a shit about that anyway. Just have to study harder next time.
Voice class was quite decent, my teacher is pumping me up for the exams... and i still haven't registered. What the damn. Theres like puny little time to do so and its so damn irritating. Everyday its stay back then stay back then stay back then stay back. Nothing seems to go right this days.
Oh well, i guess i did have laughs and some real funny shit with some of my friends. And teaching Sarah and Maisarah Math is like a choreeee :P Hahahas! They just keep screaming on and on about how hungry they are! Gosh! LOL. (:
Anyways, shall be off to rest and all now. I'm really tired with quite a naggy headache that has been persistently hagging me for freaking 1 week now. God i hate my life.
Bye.
Quote : More than words.
28.7.10
Moving on.
Can i ever believe, again?
The day was fucked up. Everything was screwed up. Whatever, no mood to post now. Just a short one will do, pfft.
Bye.
The day was fucked up. Everything was screwed up. Whatever, no mood to post now. Just a short one will do, pfft.
Bye.
27.7.10
Short thing to enjoy (:
I startled up from where i sat at the far back of the classroom. Looking up with blurry eyes, i scanned my surroundings with a lazy look painted on my face. A not too pleasant view of students fooling around in the class premises greeted me. Bored by this common sight, i pushed my bulk up and proceeded out of the class.
I strolled down the corridors to the assembly plaza with my hands slided smoothly into my pockets. My face was listless, void of emotions. I hung my head down without looking up to see where i was going. I guess people made way for me automatically, i had a murderer's mask on my face.
I saw her. She was pacing with her friends. chatting mildly to them. Amidst the crowd, she didn't notice me. She was still as beautiful as i remembered her the last time i gazed upon her lovingly. I miss her smell, missed her touch. I miss her with the longing of one who would die for her. I traced my thoughts back to reality, and tore my head from her to continue walking towards the plaza solemnly.
It had only been 2 days, and the pain was getting worst as the days drifted by. It tore at my heart, like my chest was splitting into two. But yet i knew i could never have her, she was so close yet so far. The distance was stretching with every passing moment. We loved each other but we couldn't be together. She was my sweet denied reality, and it hurt so bad knowing that i couldn't be with her.
I felt alone, i felt empty. I wished my pain could end, i wish i could be free of this torment.
I strolled down the corridors to the assembly plaza with my hands slided smoothly into my pockets. My face was listless, void of emotions. I hung my head down without looking up to see where i was going. I guess people made way for me automatically, i had a murderer's mask on my face.
I saw her. She was pacing with her friends. chatting mildly to them. Amidst the crowd, she didn't notice me. She was still as beautiful as i remembered her the last time i gazed upon her lovingly. I miss her smell, missed her touch. I miss her with the longing of one who would die for her. I traced my thoughts back to reality, and tore my head from her to continue walking towards the plaza solemnly.
It had only been 2 days, and the pain was getting worst as the days drifted by. It tore at my heart, like my chest was splitting into two. But yet i knew i could never have her, she was so close yet so far. The distance was stretching with every passing moment. We loved each other but we couldn't be together. She was my sweet denied reality, and it hurt so bad knowing that i couldn't be with her.
I felt alone, i felt empty. I wished my pain could end, i wish i could be free of this torment.
Oh gosh, save me.
Hi.
As you can tell from the title of this post, things aren't good. Reached school and slept all the way till Assembly. Went down, face all gloomy and everything. Quite depressing, and being like that didn't help much.
So, lessons were kinda screwed up. As usual? Only Chem lesson and English lesson was quite fun (: Yea, so the day passed pretty much slow and draggy.... Had pw presentation rehearsal after school before having to rush for choir and teach. Freaking tiring i tell you. Planned the schedule for the choir, another tiring thing. And just plainly looking at the piece of paper makes me feel burdened. Gosh, why the hell man...
Stayed in school until freaking 7 waiting for my parents. Fuck life. Now back, and i have to mug for a Pure Geog test tomorrow that i haven't started on yet. Fuck life. Fuck life, fuck life. Screw this.
Bye.
Quote : I'm waiting, are you coming?
As you can tell from the title of this post, things aren't good. Reached school and slept all the way till Assembly. Went down, face all gloomy and everything. Quite depressing, and being like that didn't help much.
So, lessons were kinda screwed up. As usual? Only Chem lesson and English lesson was quite fun (: Yea, so the day passed pretty much slow and draggy.... Had pw presentation rehearsal after school before having to rush for choir and teach. Freaking tiring i tell you. Planned the schedule for the choir, another tiring thing. And just plainly looking at the piece of paper makes me feel burdened. Gosh, why the hell man...
Stayed in school until freaking 7 waiting for my parents. Fuck life. Now back, and i have to mug for a Pure Geog test tomorrow that i haven't started on yet. Fuck life. Fuck life, fuck life. Screw this.
Bye.
Quote : I'm waiting, are you coming?
26.7.10
Collide.
School today was shit.
The lessons were slack, but still it sucked. No fun, except for occasional good laughs. And lots of fucked up shit ahhh i don't even know where to begin. My mind is in a twirl now, i might be posting an excerpt later. If not, this post is terribly disjointed and messed up and pathetically short. So ya, not worth reading anyways.
Bye.
The lessons were slack, but still it sucked. No fun, except for occasional good laughs. And lots of fucked up shit ahhh i don't even know where to begin. My mind is in a twirl now, i might be posting an excerpt later. If not, this post is terribly disjointed and messed up and pathetically short. So ya, not worth reading anyways.
Bye.
25.7.10
Into the fray again.
Hello.
Kinda boring up till now, nothing but unproductive time wastage since the very last post. I didn't do work, now then start. Well, my mum was only free now and i needed her help so yup! (:
Short post, just wanted to update this blog cause its so nice heh :P HAHA! :D Wish me luck peoplezzzxczxc, back into the fray tomorrow (: If you don't get it that means school (: BYE! (:
Oh the night.
Kinda boring up till now, nothing but unproductive time wastage since the very last post. I didn't do work, now then start. Well, my mum was only free now and i needed her help so yup! (:
Short post, just wanted to update this blog cause its so nice heh :P HAHA! :D Wish me luck peoplezzzxczxc, back into the fray tomorrow (: If you don't get it that means school (: BYE! (:
Oh the night.
School re-opening ):
Hellos! (:
Yeap i'm feeling much better today. (: Woke up feeling a little uneasy because it was kinda late... but still it doesn't matter ! (: Immediately thought of her and i felt like we were drifting, the feeling seemed so eerie but then i reconsidered and no i guess we would still have limited communications(: So it didn't matter (:
Bathed and went down to have my lunch. Then i moved off for Consort Auditions. And no, i'm already in i just went to watch and give prep talks :P Well, what can i say! :D I'm proud of some of my juniors, but also i send my deepest regards to some of the others( and no they aren't dead :P ) :) Really some of you guys performed really well and i'm very happy as a senior. But for those who didn't, don't give up! Your journey doesn't end here :D Consort opens auditions annually i think, so there is still a chance! (:
Just came back, feeling a little tired but my mood is above average! :D Sent a message to her mum to try to request of something. Hope it works out well (: Anyways, i think i shall be slacking awhile before doing work later. I have to! HAHA! :P If not, i end my post here. I might be posting again later (: Wish you all a nice day! (: Bye! (:
Quote : Never give up, as i've said before (:
Yeap i'm feeling much better today. (: Woke up feeling a little uneasy because it was kinda late... but still it doesn't matter ! (: Immediately thought of her and i felt like we were drifting, the feeling seemed so eerie but then i reconsidered and no i guess we would still have limited communications(: So it didn't matter (:
Bathed and went down to have my lunch. Then i moved off for Consort Auditions. And no, i'm already in i just went to watch and give prep talks :P Well, what can i say! :D I'm proud of some of my juniors, but also i send my deepest regards to some of the others( and no they aren't dead :P ) :) Really some of you guys performed really well and i'm very happy as a senior. But for those who didn't, don't give up! Your journey doesn't end here :D Consort opens auditions annually i think, so there is still a chance! (:
Just came back, feeling a little tired but my mood is above average! :D Sent a message to her mum to try to request of something. Hope it works out well (: Anyways, i think i shall be slacking awhile before doing work later. I have to! HAHA! :P If not, i end my post here. I might be posting again later (: Wish you all a nice day! (: Bye! (:
Quote : Never give up, as i've said before (:
24.7.10
Passing through.
Hello.
Yeah and i think you guys would've probably realised, i post much more often when i'm down or whatever. Oh well, a blog is for me to express myself anyway! (:
So, things have been going okay-ish. Since the last time i posted that is. Yeah, i guess i could let go. Since thinking about it, really its for her sake. Since she wanted it. Oh well, right? (: Hahas.
Shouldn't have told anyone, now its hard whenever they mention her to me. I wonder if anything would change? Because i know you're regretting your decision right now.
But still, yea. Not sure what time to sleep, thats kinda pathetic. Shall be doing work for sure though tomorrow. If not i'm dead anyways LOL. Sigh, quite an awesome week next week cause there are no supps at all after school. 2.30/2.00 dismissed everyday, Shiok ttm. Well, i still had better days i suppose.
Shall be off then, post tomorrow once i feel like it. School is re-opening soon, damn i suppose. Bye.
Quote : Oh... i see. So what now?
Yeah and i think you guys would've probably realised, i post much more often when i'm down or whatever. Oh well, a blog is for me to express myself anyway! (:
So, things have been going okay-ish. Since the last time i posted that is. Yeah, i guess i could let go. Since thinking about it, really its for her sake. Since she wanted it. Oh well, right? (: Hahas.
Shouldn't have told anyone, now its hard whenever they mention her to me. I wonder if anything would change? Because i know you're regretting your decision right now.
But still, yea. Not sure what time to sleep, thats kinda pathetic. Shall be doing work for sure though tomorrow. If not i'm dead anyways LOL. Sigh, quite an awesome week next week cause there are no supps at all after school. 2.30/2.00 dismissed everyday, Shiok ttm. Well, i still had better days i suppose.
Shall be off then, post tomorrow once i feel like it. School is re-opening soon, damn i suppose. Bye.
Quote : Oh... i see. So what now?
A night washed with sorrow.
Hey.
The day was passed pretty okay, surprisingly. Took my mind off my troubles by watching game walk-through-s and singing songs and that sorta thing. As i discovered before, it was a super good revenue.
Have to bath and pack up ready to be off to Andrew's house soon. Shall be spending the night there and making my way to Siglap South CC the next day to give prep talks to my juniors (: Hope they perform well at the Vocal Consort auditions. (:
I guess i got over whatever happened, and now its time for you to do so as well. I know you haven't, and i know you're still confused and probably feeling worst than before. And i know they are still scolding you. But, this was what you wanted. Not me. I'm sorry it had to be like this, i'm sorry i can't stop them from doing this. I'm sorry for making you love me so much. But i guess again its your choice, we could've go through this together but no you didn't want to. So yea.
Should be bringing over some work to his house to do as well. Its going to be a very emo-ish night, hahahas. (: And no, this time no one knows of the situation.
If nothing else, i doubt i will be posting again. If i do its probably real short (: Goodnight everyone, and goodbye.
Quote : Wish me away, night of tears.
The day was passed pretty okay, surprisingly. Took my mind off my troubles by watching game walk-through-s and singing songs and that sorta thing. As i discovered before, it was a super good revenue.
Have to bath and pack up ready to be off to Andrew's house soon. Shall be spending the night there and making my way to Siglap South CC the next day to give prep talks to my juniors (: Hope they perform well at the Vocal Consort auditions. (:
I guess i got over whatever happened, and now its time for you to do so as well. I know you haven't, and i know you're still confused and probably feeling worst than before. And i know they are still scolding you. But, this was what you wanted. Not me. I'm sorry it had to be like this, i'm sorry i can't stop them from doing this. I'm sorry for making you love me so much. But i guess again its your choice, we could've go through this together but no you didn't want to. So yea.
Should be bringing over some work to his house to do as well. Its going to be a very emo-ish night, hahahas. (: And no, this time no one knows of the situation.
If nothing else, i doubt i will be posting again. If i do its probably real short (: Goodnight everyone, and goodbye.
Quote : Wish me away, night of tears.
Why?
Sigh...
Hey. Today was fucked up, right from the first time i woke up. Well, its still early so i guess its going to get worst.
Woke up at about 6.30 in the morning. Couldn't bring myself to move, and i felt more horrible than i ever did. Something was going to happen, i told myself. And it did, shall elaborate later. But anyways, i decided not to go for choir and to continue sleeping. Woke up again at about 8.10+, Andrew was calling. I told him i couldn't make it, and wished him luck for the practice later. Then i went back to sleep. Woke up, AGAIN ( and yes i was super freaking irritated that i kept waking up ) at about 10.20. Read the message i received. Bingo, the expected came. Of course, i felt like crap and i couldn't believe what i read. But all in all, it boiled down to having to accept it. I guess its just too perfect to be a reality.
Felt lifeless all the way until now. Whats worst? Andrew told me choir today was hell. What a relief huh? Felt really empty throughout the day from the message until now. Haven't done anything constructive except for eating my lunch. And i'm just dragging myself through this abyss. My head hurts like mad, and my nose is still terribly blocked and annoying. Only my throat is getting slightly better. I didn't see the doctor, you said you would scold me, i guess you won't now.... sigh...
Yea, and i think ya'll have guessed it by now. The message content, i mean. Life is really entertaining, ain't it? If Andrew lets me go to his house tonight it would be a blast. I feel bad, like i'm using him whenever i'm down. But i'm not, to tell the truth. Just needing my friends because i'm down. Its not like i abandon them when i don't need them anyway. So... i guess thats it. I don't have much else to post for now. Might or might not post again later. Depending i guess.
Goodbye.
Quote : When i need you, i lose you instead. That perfect love, gone. Mistakes never meant to be, made.
Hey. Today was fucked up, right from the first time i woke up. Well, its still early so i guess its going to get worst.
Woke up at about 6.30 in the morning. Couldn't bring myself to move, and i felt more horrible than i ever did. Something was going to happen, i told myself. And it did, shall elaborate later. But anyways, i decided not to go for choir and to continue sleeping. Woke up again at about 8.10+, Andrew was calling. I told him i couldn't make it, and wished him luck for the practice later. Then i went back to sleep. Woke up, AGAIN ( and yes i was super freaking irritated that i kept waking up ) at about 10.20. Read the message i received. Bingo, the expected came. Of course, i felt like crap and i couldn't believe what i read. But all in all, it boiled down to having to accept it. I guess its just too perfect to be a reality.
Felt lifeless all the way until now. Whats worst? Andrew told me choir today was hell. What a relief huh? Felt really empty throughout the day from the message until now. Haven't done anything constructive except for eating my lunch. And i'm just dragging myself through this abyss. My head hurts like mad, and my nose is still terribly blocked and annoying. Only my throat is getting slightly better. I didn't see the doctor, you said you would scold me, i guess you won't now.... sigh...
Yea, and i think ya'll have guessed it by now. The message content, i mean. Life is really entertaining, ain't it? If Andrew lets me go to his house tonight it would be a blast. I feel bad, like i'm using him whenever i'm down. But i'm not, to tell the truth. Just needing my friends because i'm down. Its not like i abandon them when i don't need them anyway. So... i guess thats it. I don't have much else to post for now. Might or might not post again later. Depending i guess.
Goodbye.
Quote : When i need you, i lose you instead. That perfect love, gone. Mistakes never meant to be, made.
23.7.10
What a drag.
Hey.
Today was fucked up. First thing, i'm damn bloody sick. I have a block nose, sore throat, headache and plenty of other ailments. And whats the best thing? I don't even have time to rest myself. I have choir tomorrow at 8. Horrible.
School was lukewarm as usual. Didn't have any fun lessons or interesting ones. Especially Geography, i was practically dying inside the room because it was so damn cold. As i said before i was sick. Yea so. School was screwed as well. Lost my temper at the choir big time, huge mistake. But kinda worth it though. I'm sorry to you.
So, i thought coming back home might be an escape. Turns out when i went to sleep, i was woken up to another quarrel. Whats the best thing? With my own fucking mum. Just because i didn't eat? Just because i was TRYING TO REST AND I DIDN'T EAT you scream at me?? Just because i was SICK AND TRYING TO REST you scream at me? You say that i MUST eat before sleeping because its for my own sake. OPEN YOUR EYES MAN. Have i not been eating? And why didn't i eat? And was that your real motive? Or were you just trying to prove yourself CORRECT as usual!? You always can't accept that you're wrong. The moment people say you are, you get all fucked up. FUCK. You know how FRUSTRATING and ANNOYING you are sometimes? What makes you think i ALWAYS use a knife or the house door as the solution to the problem?? HUH?!?! And you have the heart to scold me and scream at me and make me all fucked up and shout at you when i'm sick with so many SHIT. HUH!??! What kinda mother are you?? You say you're my mother you have the RIGHT to do all this things?? FUCK. Even the buddha(because you guys are SUCH devoted buddhist)doesn't have the right to be THIS FUCKED UP. USE YOUR BRAINS, PLEASE. STOP DOING THIS.
Anger, frustration and irritation. And its not your fault, don't blame yourself. -cuori-
Today was fucked up. First thing, i'm damn bloody sick. I have a block nose, sore throat, headache and plenty of other ailments. And whats the best thing? I don't even have time to rest myself. I have choir tomorrow at 8. Horrible.
School was lukewarm as usual. Didn't have any fun lessons or interesting ones. Especially Geography, i was practically dying inside the room because it was so damn cold. As i said before i was sick. Yea so. School was screwed as well. Lost my temper at the choir big time, huge mistake. But kinda worth it though. I'm sorry to you.
So, i thought coming back home might be an escape. Turns out when i went to sleep, i was woken up to another quarrel. Whats the best thing? With my own fucking mum. Just because i didn't eat? Just because i was TRYING TO REST AND I DIDN'T EAT you scream at me?? Just because i was SICK AND TRYING TO REST you scream at me? You say that i MUST eat before sleeping because its for my own sake. OPEN YOUR EYES MAN. Have i not been eating? And why didn't i eat? And was that your real motive? Or were you just trying to prove yourself CORRECT as usual!? You always can't accept that you're wrong. The moment people say you are, you get all fucked up. FUCK. You know how FRUSTRATING and ANNOYING you are sometimes? What makes you think i ALWAYS use a knife or the house door as the solution to the problem?? HUH?!?! And you have the heart to scold me and scream at me and make me all fucked up and shout at you when i'm sick with so many SHIT. HUH!??! What kinda mother are you?? You say you're my mother you have the RIGHT to do all this things?? FUCK. Even the buddha(because you guys are SUCH devoted buddhist)doesn't have the right to be THIS FUCKED UP. USE YOUR BRAINS, PLEASE. STOP DOING THIS.
Anger, frustration and irritation. And its not your fault, don't blame yourself. -cuori-
21.7.10
Urgh .__.
Hey (:
This post will be short because i'm still having a bad headache... Yea, sat for both my tests that way. I totally flunked + screwed + failed + messed up both of them, so much for not studying uh. LOL .__. Oh well, its over so what can i do about it? Forget it. (:
So... today was still good although there was the incident of failed tests as well as lukewarm lessons. Because of something la, it lifts me up, raises me up :P.... :D So, i shan't elaborate too much, except for i miss that something like to the max ):
Shall be doing work later i think (: Hope i have enough stamina to, and i shall wait for a call :D Alright. BYE! (:
This post will be short because i'm still having a bad headache... Yea, sat for both my tests that way. I totally flunked + screwed + failed + messed up both of them, so much for not studying uh. LOL .__. Oh well, its over so what can i do about it? Forget it. (:
So... today was still good although there was the incident of failed tests as well as lukewarm lessons. Because of something la, it lifts me up, raises me up :P.... :D So, i shan't elaborate too much, except for i miss that something like to the max ):
Shall be doing work later i think (: Hope i have enough stamina to, and i shall wait for a call :D Alright. BYE! (:
20.7.10
:D :D :D
HELLO! :D
Today was quite fantastic(: In fact, i think it was very fantastic! :D Okay except for the fact that i have a splitting headache ): ): ): Oh well, guess it doesn't matter, such trivial stuff, anymore! (:
Lessons were pretty fun especially E math. Had some good laughs until my stomach ached heh heh :P But still, yea it was enjoyable. Although halfway through i started getting more and more drowsy and dozing off yaduhyaduh .__. Then shortly after the pain pangs came. And i had to take my Chemistry test like that! ): Speaking about the test, i don't think its going to go well. I still have 1 History and 1 SS test tomorrow. Omg damn my life manzczxczxc. ): Anyways, off this shit.
Life is going to start picking up real smooth now i think(: Because things turned out well today, and it will continue that way, i can assure that (: Herein ends my post, MIGHT post again later since this is kinda early.
BYE! :D
Quote : I just knew it was right not to give up just yet
Today was quite fantastic(: In fact, i think it was very fantastic! :D Okay except for the fact that i have a splitting headache ): ): ): Oh well, guess it doesn't matter, such trivial stuff, anymore! (:
Lessons were pretty fun especially E math. Had some good laughs until my stomach ached heh heh :P But still, yea it was enjoyable. Although halfway through i started getting more and more drowsy and dozing off yaduhyaduh .__. Then shortly after the pain pangs came. And i had to take my Chemistry test like that! ): Speaking about the test, i don't think its going to go well. I still have 1 History and 1 SS test tomorrow. Omg damn my life manzczxczxc. ): Anyways, off this shit.
Life is going to start picking up real smooth now i think(: Because things turned out well today, and it will continue that way, i can assure that (: Herein ends my post, MIGHT post again later since this is kinda early.
BYE! :D
Quote : I just knew it was right not to give up just yet
19.7.10
Headache ):
Hey hello (:
No, don't think it was a good day. Shall post a short one tonight, feeling really worn out now...
Everything was per normal until about 2p.m. Had a splitting headache, feels like the world around me was compressing. My head felt like freaking pain manzxczxczxc. ): And its still there! Damn.
Well never mind, shall stop complaining now. At least this blog knows i'm still alive with this post.
Bye.
No, don't think it was a good day. Shall post a short one tonight, feeling really worn out now...
Everything was per normal until about 2p.m. Had a splitting headache, feels like the world around me was compressing. My head felt like freaking pain manzxczxczxc. ): And its still there! Damn.
Well never mind, shall stop complaining now. At least this blog knows i'm still alive with this post.
Bye.
18.7.10
Sigh...
Hello.
Woke up pretty early for a weekend today. Well, i had to i suppose. If not i wouldn't have time to play and study. Well, lets just say i played already but i freaking don't feel like studying for nuts. Theres so much to do, and so little time/drive.
Lets see. I have to do a chinese script for a talk tomorrow, chemistry paper, Physics question, A math questions(a lot at that), mug history, social studies and E math. Like what the hell la fuck life seriously. Why the fuck must they make us do so many irrelevant stuff such as the chinese script one. I mean i've been doing fine for oral all the while, there isn't a freaking need for that gosh. And seriously la so many tests for what?!?! Just let us relax more and put in the necessary graded tests instead of splitting into so many smaller ones and then we don't have enough time to study for all of it leading to a decline in grades. God i hate school and its antics.
I still have choir/voice class to be stressed up about. Fantastic. Should be doing work soon, might post later if things get worst/better. Bye.
Quote : Yeah i get it life, things ain't good. Don't needa emphasise.
Woke up pretty early for a weekend today. Well, i had to i suppose. If not i wouldn't have time to play and study. Well, lets just say i played already but i freaking don't feel like studying for nuts. Theres so much to do, and so little time/drive.
Lets see. I have to do a chinese script for a talk tomorrow, chemistry paper, Physics question, A math questions(a lot at that), mug history, social studies and E math. Like what the hell la fuck life seriously. Why the fuck must they make us do so many irrelevant stuff such as the chinese script one. I mean i've been doing fine for oral all the while, there isn't a freaking need for that gosh. And seriously la so many tests for what?!?! Just let us relax more and put in the necessary graded tests instead of splitting into so many smaller ones and then we don't have enough time to study for all of it leading to a decline in grades. God i hate school and its antics.
I still have choir/voice class to be stressed up about. Fantastic. Should be doing work soon, might post later if things get worst/better. Bye.
Quote : Yeah i get it life, things ain't good. Don't needa emphasise.
17.7.10
Pfft.
Hey.
Today was fairly smooth. Fairly. The day started off with an early choir practice. Very early. Well, started at 8 but i had to wake up at 6.30 to get prepared and everything. Furthermore, the jam was really bad in the mornings because it was pouring cats and dogs. The area was practically flooded and i had to jump around to get into the car. -.- So, not a good morning.
Went to school and realised that quite a handful of members were late due to the rain, and it wasn't the first time. So ya, just count us unlucky. We started with sectionals before gathering to do some NDP crap so we ended at about 1+ or so i think. Went to lunch with Andrew and gang and U-turned back to school to wait for my mum.
Pretty stale time spent outside today. I haven't done any of the homework that i have to finish by the weekends either. No mood, no energy, no motivation. Life's been pretty fine, but studies has definitely been deproving. Falling short already. I'm shagged easily like i said before...
Ahh, how i wish i could just sleep my life alway. Bye.
Quote : I look up with that familiar instinct, to realise your hand was no longer distinct.
Today was fairly smooth. Fairly. The day started off with an early choir practice. Very early. Well, started at 8 but i had to wake up at 6.30 to get prepared and everything. Furthermore, the jam was really bad in the mornings because it was pouring cats and dogs. The area was practically flooded and i had to jump around to get into the car. -.- So, not a good morning.
Went to school and realised that quite a handful of members were late due to the rain, and it wasn't the first time. So ya, just count us unlucky. We started with sectionals before gathering to do some NDP crap so we ended at about 1+ or so i think. Went to lunch with Andrew and gang and U-turned back to school to wait for my mum.
Pretty stale time spent outside today. I haven't done any of the homework that i have to finish by the weekends either. No mood, no energy, no motivation. Life's been pretty fine, but studies has definitely been deproving. Falling short already. I'm shagged easily like i said before...
Ahh, how i wish i could just sleep my life alway. Bye.
Quote : I look up with that familiar instinct, to realise your hand was no longer distinct.
16.7.10
Superb day :D
Hello!! :D
Slept REAL early last night because i needed to go school REAL early to finish up chinese homework(which to forgetful me conveniently left in under the table in class).... so anyways, i was pretty awake throughout the day! :D
School today was like FREAKING fun la! :D Filbert and I amazed like hell lotta people with our duo hahahas :D We're planning to participate in a show called X-factor(some sorta talent show on Teacher's Day)and will be incorporating Singing, Beatboxing, and Rapping as our main components :D We'll bringing something new to the stage, hopefully to amaze the audience. But most importantly, just to have lots of fun up there :D
I shan't blog about my studies since its getting stagnant and boring -.- But i CAN say that life is improving/changing really quick now and its so fast pace i feel like i'm running to catch up. Get what i mean? I'm shagged easily nowadays. -shrug- Maybe its just me, but it could be that the days are really getting tiring...
NEVER MIND! :D Enough rambling :D I shall go chill out now! (: GOODBYE PEEPS! :D CYA! :D
Quote : I know naught defeat, only thy strength to pull through, no deceit.
Slept REAL early last night because i needed to go school REAL early to finish up chinese homework(which to forgetful me conveniently left in under the table in class).... so anyways, i was pretty awake throughout the day! :D
School today was like FREAKING fun la! :D Filbert and I amazed like hell lotta people with our duo hahahas :D We're planning to participate in a show called X-factor(some sorta talent show on Teacher's Day)and will be incorporating Singing, Beatboxing, and Rapping as our main components :D We'll bringing something new to the stage, hopefully to amaze the audience. But most importantly, just to have lots of fun up there :D
I shan't blog about my studies since its getting stagnant and boring -.- But i CAN say that life is improving/changing really quick now and its so fast pace i feel like i'm running to catch up. Get what i mean? I'm shagged easily nowadays. -shrug- Maybe its just me, but it could be that the days are really getting tiring...
NEVER MIND! :D Enough rambling :D I shall go chill out now! (: GOODBYE PEEPS! :D CYA! :D
Quote : I know naught defeat, only thy strength to pull through, no deceit.
15.7.10
Great! Things are looking up! :D
Helloooo :D
Hmm hmm hmm... Today was great! :D Just came back from voice class and it was quite a success!! :D The teacher told me that i could choose from 2 routes. 1st : take the graded exams that includes oral and sight-singing blabla yaduhyaduh. OR. 2nd : take the 'certificated' exams and skip the need to do the other components apart from pieces!! :D OF COURSE!!! I would prefer the latter, but i didn't readily agree to the second. Because i felt it was worth giving it a shot, to improve my other components :D
So that was voice. As for studies? hmm... 'luke-warm' standard i would say (: The weeks weren't as fruitful as the first because it was crammed with so damn many practices and shit like that ): I hope things look up soon!! Although my life certainly is!! :D
My temper and all is improving like freaking fast :D Determination DOES bring you somewhere :P HAHAHA :D
Alright enough blabbering, i shall be off now!! Read manga watch anime AND.... do homework ): LOL. Anti-climax much? :P BYE! :D
Quote : Don't give up.
Hmm hmm hmm... Today was great! :D Just came back from voice class and it was quite a success!! :D The teacher told me that i could choose from 2 routes. 1st : take the graded exams that includes oral and sight-singing blabla yaduhyaduh. OR. 2nd : take the 'certificated' exams and skip the need to do the other components apart from pieces!! :D OF COURSE!!! I would prefer the latter, but i didn't readily agree to the second. Because i felt it was worth giving it a shot, to improve my other components :D
So that was voice. As for studies? hmm... 'luke-warm' standard i would say (: The weeks weren't as fruitful as the first because it was crammed with so damn many practices and shit like that ): I hope things look up soon!! Although my life certainly is!! :D
My temper and all is improving like freaking fast :D Determination DOES bring you somewhere :P HAHAHA :D
Alright enough blabbering, i shall be off now!! Read manga watch anime AND.... do homework ): LOL. Anti-climax much? :P BYE! :D
Quote : Don't give up.
14.7.10
Oh i love this.
Sup.
Today = best day of the week. Yes, you can sense the whole load of sarcasm behind this claim. Apparently, i have loads of chinese homework due tomorrow and i didn't bring home ANY of it. Meaning?? I have to copy it during recess/morning time tomorrow what the fuck. Most probably recess since i always sleep in class or wander around in the mornings ;p Well, i just have to be really fast tomorrow. Oh ya, and i think my Ting Xie is doomed for sure. Since i didn't bring back anything, meaning i can't study for it. -.-
Anyways, today's performance was screwed up. The choir sucked. Lets be frank. We just sucked. I don't even know what to say about the standard. And guess what? The sec4s were there. And the basses were really disappointing. I hope sectionals arranged tomorrow will do something about it. Sigh...
School's been really busy and i don't even know what to say about it. Its just hectic X 123912309342394. And its like worst than this year's sec4s. Seriously. The work load and all. And particularly stressful on our batch since SYF is coming soon for TKchoir. Sigh...
Sometimes i wish i could just sit back and relax and just enjoy the world's peace and quiet... And not be in the midst of all this hulla haboo ( not knowing how to generalise everything ;p ). Yea... just ya know, get a partner, have some fun and love in life and just clear my mind off worries and die peacefully. But of course! That is impossible -.- Sigh...
Three sighs, i think i should go before i say more. Should be having another draggy night again. Hope all this shit ends soon. And oh ya, fucking 4 tests next week and english oral tomorrow. Things just can't get any better. Oh well!! Sing a merry song and just shut everything out! :D BYE! (:
Quote : Life's complication, a carefree guy like me wants naught.
Today = best day of the week. Yes, you can sense the whole load of sarcasm behind this claim. Apparently, i have loads of chinese homework due tomorrow and i didn't bring home ANY of it. Meaning?? I have to copy it during recess/morning time tomorrow what the fuck. Most probably recess since i always sleep in class or wander around in the mornings ;p Well, i just have to be really fast tomorrow. Oh ya, and i think my Ting Xie is doomed for sure. Since i didn't bring back anything, meaning i can't study for it. -.-
Anyways, today's performance was screwed up. The choir sucked. Lets be frank. We just sucked. I don't even know what to say about the standard. And guess what? The sec4s were there. And the basses were really disappointing. I hope sectionals arranged tomorrow will do something about it. Sigh...
School's been really busy and i don't even know what to say about it. Its just hectic X 123912309342394. And its like worst than this year's sec4s. Seriously. The work load and all. And particularly stressful on our batch since SYF is coming soon for TKchoir. Sigh...
Sometimes i wish i could just sit back and relax and just enjoy the world's peace and quiet... And not be in the midst of all this hulla haboo ( not knowing how to generalise everything ;p ). Yea... just ya know, get a partner, have some fun and love in life and just clear my mind off worries and die peacefully. But of course! That is impossible -.- Sigh...
Three sighs, i think i should go before i say more. Should be having another draggy night again. Hope all this shit ends soon. And oh ya, fucking 4 tests next week and english oral tomorrow. Things just can't get any better. Oh well!! Sing a merry song and just shut everything out! :D BYE! (:
Quote : Life's complication, a carefree guy like me wants naught.
13.7.10
Lifeless .__.
Hey(:
No mood to do the gargantuan pile of work in front of me now... maybe i'll mug it all tomorrow(: Feeling very lifeless now... catching up a lot with a lot of friends which i drifted from(:
Ah i guess days are going to be like this. I just have to to stay on my feet and live through all this.
I love the song Don't Give up :
Don't give up, Its just the weight of the world.
When your heart is heavy, i will lift it for you.
Don't give up, Because you want to be heard.
If silence keeps you, i'll break it for you.
Everybody wants to be understood.
Well i can hear you.
Everybody wants to be loved.
Don't give up.
Because you are loved.
(: Listening to it makes me feel more alive, i believe i can get through this. But for now, getting back up on my feet and moving through life is the most important. Wish me luck!! I shall be off! BYE! (:
No mood to do the gargantuan pile of work in front of me now... maybe i'll mug it all tomorrow(: Feeling very lifeless now... catching up a lot with a lot of friends which i drifted from(:
Ah i guess days are going to be like this. I just have to to stay on my feet and live through all this.
I love the song Don't Give up :
Don't give up, Its just the weight of the world.
When your heart is heavy, i will lift it for you.
Don't give up, Because you want to be heard.
If silence keeps you, i'll break it for you.
Everybody wants to be understood.
Well i can hear you.
Everybody wants to be loved.
Don't give up.
Because you are loved.
(: Listening to it makes me feel more alive, i believe i can get through this. But for now, getting back up on my feet and moving through life is the most important. Wish me luck!! I shall be off! BYE! (:
Boring Day!! ):
Hello(:
Urgh today was really bad ): Actually, there was both good and bad so lets split them up to see... Right.
First, got to school and just slept the entire morning off before going for assembly. I guess i was tired, like both physically and mentally. Then the rest of the day was crammed up loads of shit periods and it was really draggy and shitty and whatsoever blabla. And some things got screwed up. Heh, guess it all started with the stupid me but oh well!! Its done, no use crying over spilled milk. (: I believe i'll find Her when the day comes. Its all planned already(:
But good things was that i had like freaking hell lot of fun with my friends during english lesson today HAHA!! :D We were like totally chilling out manzxczxcz :P There were great laughs and lots of fun then and it as usual i really gotta thank you bros for being there for me all the time. Whether or not you guys were doing it because you knew doesn't matter at all :D New additions >> Khidir and Johnny :D
Anyways, i have a new conviction. I would strive to be a person who can manage his emotions, temper and all that. I realise that is still something i'm lacking in. Especially frustration and anger, i'm most prone to those. I want to be a student who would focus during lessons and just score well for exams. Not necessarily very well, just decent enough to enter VJC :D What about a girlfriend?? Well, 2 experiences. Both weren't so desirable/successful. But she will come in time, i need not worry :D
The past 2 weeks have been really harrowing and trying. I suppose its time i put my feet down to earth and get serious business done. Time to wake up, there is no more time for fooling around. Shall be off to finish up homework now! (: I think i'll post again after this :D Bye!
Quote : No more going in rounds about life. Its time to set my path straight and walk the right route.
Urgh today was really bad ): Actually, there was both good and bad so lets split them up to see... Right.
First, got to school and just slept the entire morning off before going for assembly. I guess i was tired, like both physically and mentally. Then the rest of the day was crammed up loads of shit periods and it was really draggy and shitty and whatsoever blabla. And some things got screwed up. Heh, guess it all started with the stupid me but oh well!! Its done, no use crying over spilled milk. (: I believe i'll find Her when the day comes. Its all planned already(:
But good things was that i had like freaking hell lot of fun with my friends during english lesson today HAHA!! :D We were like totally chilling out manzxczxcz :P There were great laughs and lots of fun then and it as usual i really gotta thank you bros for being there for me all the time. Whether or not you guys were doing it because you knew doesn't matter at all :D New additions >> Khidir and Johnny :D
Anyways, i have a new conviction. I would strive to be a person who can manage his emotions, temper and all that. I realise that is still something i'm lacking in. Especially frustration and anger, i'm most prone to those. I want to be a student who would focus during lessons and just score well for exams. Not necessarily very well, just decent enough to enter VJC :D What about a girlfriend?? Well, 2 experiences. Both weren't so desirable/successful. But she will come in time, i need not worry :D
The past 2 weeks have been really harrowing and trying. I suppose its time i put my feet down to earth and get serious business done. Time to wake up, there is no more time for fooling around. Shall be off to finish up homework now! (: I think i'll post again after this :D Bye!
Quote : No more going in rounds about life. Its time to set my path straight and walk the right route.
12.7.10
Oh man just great.
Sigh.
Hahs. Yes you're right. Things are screwed up once more. Well seriously, i'm kinda used to this. All this emo shit and all. This year's birthday officially sucks. The celebrations with my family and the wishes from my friends were great, but still... Ya...
Sigh, maybe i should stop thinking about everything but i just can't help it. Sleep later will help, but tomorrow will be equally stupid and draggy.
I love life. Bye.
Hahs. Yes you're right. Things are screwed up once more. Well seriously, i'm kinda used to this. All this emo shit and all. This year's birthday officially sucks. The celebrations with my family and the wishes from my friends were great, but still... Ya...
Sigh, maybe i should stop thinking about everything but i just can't help it. Sleep later will help, but tomorrow will be equally stupid and draggy.
I love life. Bye.
First day of the Week .__.
Hellos!! :D
YES I'M OFFICIALLY 15 YEARS OLD :D :D HAHAHAS :P Okay la actually this birthday wasn't so happy... Yea there were let downs here and there and i remembered some stuff... But its okay la i have awesome friends who were there for me :D And awesome juniors as well!! :D
So anyways, just went through the grueling session of personally replying each and every birthday wish on my facebook wall :D Yea i figured that would be more sincere in thanking them so yupyup! :D Today was kinda sucky .__. I had a good talk with Clemence though, its always nice to catch up with that guy. He is a great person :D But the periods today were draggy and boring and i got punished with extra homework ): ): Damn ittttt. Never mind i don't feel like doing it since its chinese so i shall finish my other homework instead :D
I think my Parents are buying back a cake to celebrate my birthday tonight. Sometimes i wish i could have more time to just sit back, relax and think over everything that has happened. But life's schedule is just so hectic... I mean seriously. Take a chill pill please? We're only sec3 and the work we get is more than this year's sec4. -.- Thats just.... never mind.
But oh well what can i do? I just have to live with everything that has been thrown at me. And be happy with how things are now. There is no point dwelling on anything that has passed or is bad. What is important is knowing that someday, things will turn out (:
If not, here ends my post. I might be posting again later if i feel like it :P But if not, its BYE FOR NOW!! :D
Quote : A new day heralds a new start.
YES I'M OFFICIALLY 15 YEARS OLD :D :D HAHAHAS :P Okay la actually this birthday wasn't so happy... Yea there were let downs here and there and i remembered some stuff... But its okay la i have awesome friends who were there for me :D And awesome juniors as well!! :D
So anyways, just went through the grueling session of personally replying each and every birthday wish on my facebook wall :D Yea i figured that would be more sincere in thanking them so yupyup! :D Today was kinda sucky .__. I had a good talk with Clemence though, its always nice to catch up with that guy. He is a great person :D But the periods today were draggy and boring and i got punished with extra homework ): ): Damn ittttt. Never mind i don't feel like doing it since its chinese so i shall finish my other homework instead :D
I think my Parents are buying back a cake to celebrate my birthday tonight. Sometimes i wish i could have more time to just sit back, relax and think over everything that has happened. But life's schedule is just so hectic... I mean seriously. Take a chill pill please? We're only sec3 and the work we get is more than this year's sec4. -.- Thats just.... never mind.
But oh well what can i do? I just have to live with everything that has been thrown at me. And be happy with how things are now. There is no point dwelling on anything that has passed or is bad. What is important is knowing that someday, things will turn out (:
If not, here ends my post. I might be posting again later if i feel like it :P But if not, its BYE FOR NOW!! :D
Quote : A new day heralds a new start.
11.7.10
Hello! :D
Heyhey! (:
Hahahas, i had a long long sleep last night :D Well, collapsed on the bed by about 12+. Choir ended especially late last night because it was the actual performance and i went out with my friends after that. :D It was freaking fun okay!!! We kept making jokes about Theodore regarding disgusting stuff and all that :P I think TKchoir is like famed for being spastic and retarded in public now :P
Then i went to Andrew's house with him to let my Mum fetch me from there. The bus/MRT trip was kinda fun too. Talked like crazy to a some of the friends which i drifted away from and of course its the point that i get to go home with Andrew hahhas :D So then, reached his house. Realised that my mum was OUTSIDE the condo area not INSIDE so i had to walk all the way out -.- Tiring but its okay (: Boarded, drove home.
I immediately bathed and slept all the way until 3p.m+ today !!! :D Awesome rest, long time since i slept THAT long :D My body feels so much lighter and my shoulders don't ache so much :D Sleep is VERY important, thats what i'm saying :P
Hmm... you seem to be better upon reading your latest post on Saturday. Lets hope that it lasts until today! Or more accurately, today when you call me (: Sigh... i have been having a good feeling this few days. And since you just called me ( i continued the post after calling her :P ) i hope whatever i said worked and that it opened you again. (: I pray to Fate and God.
BYE :D
Hahahas, i had a long long sleep last night :D Well, collapsed on the bed by about 12+. Choir ended especially late last night because it was the actual performance and i went out with my friends after that. :D It was freaking fun okay!!! We kept making jokes about Theodore regarding disgusting stuff and all that :P I think TKchoir is like famed for being spastic and retarded in public now :P
Then i went to Andrew's house with him to let my Mum fetch me from there. The bus/MRT trip was kinda fun too. Talked like crazy to a some of the friends which i drifted away from and of course its the point that i get to go home with Andrew hahhas :D So then, reached his house. Realised that my mum was OUTSIDE the condo area not INSIDE so i had to walk all the way out -.- Tiring but its okay (: Boarded, drove home.
I immediately bathed and slept all the way until 3p.m+ today !!! :D Awesome rest, long time since i slept THAT long :D My body feels so much lighter and my shoulders don't ache so much :D Sleep is VERY important, thats what i'm saying :P
Hmm... you seem to be better upon reading your latest post on Saturday. Lets hope that it lasts until today! Or more accurately, today when you call me (: Sigh... i have been having a good feeling this few days. And since you just called me ( i continued the post after calling her :P ) i hope whatever i said worked and that it opened you again. (: I pray to Fate and God.
BYE :D
9.7.10
Yet another...but its more tiring ):
Heyhey youyou :P
Hahahahs, Hello there everyone! :D I'm kinda feeling proud of myself because i have pull through YET ANOTHER DAY!!! :D I shall only start on my homework tomorrow and shall only post a short one because i'm tired ):
So just, finished choir and bathed at around 11+. Was super super tired la!! ): And rehearsals today sucked!! We sat there for like 1 hour waiting and only sang for like 15 mins then left already. We practically wasted ALL our time rotting there!! ):
I still needa finish my homework which i don't think it might take that much time :P So if not, i shall see you guys soon enough!! :D
The day is coming. Tolerate, all this will soon be over (:
BYE! :D
Hahahahs, Hello there everyone! :D I'm kinda feeling proud of myself because i have pull through YET ANOTHER DAY!!! :D I shall only start on my homework tomorrow and shall only post a short one because i'm tired ):
So just, finished choir and bathed at around 11+. Was super super tired la!! ): And rehearsals today sucked!! We sat there for like 1 hour waiting and only sang for like 15 mins then left already. We practically wasted ALL our time rotting there!! ):
I still needa finish my homework which i don't think it might take that much time :P So if not, i shall see you guys soon enough!! :D
The day is coming. Tolerate, all this will soon be over (:
BYE! :D
8.7.10
Another day down! :P
Hellos(:
Today was great! :D The day started off pretty mundane, the usual routine style of boring school life.. .__. Well, i can't imagine anyone thinking school is fun?!? I mean come on, 6 hours straight of non-stop books and then endless supplementaries throughout the week coupled with tedious and strenuous CCA practices for 5 days??? Students are practically mind-dead zombies at the end of the week... And then back into the fray after a pathetic mere 2 days break ( which is also occupied with CCA practices -.- ).
Anyways, i'm so glad that despite how i feel towards her, i'm able to look open-mindedly at stuff i never could do so before when we were together. That is something to be proud off :P And CONGRATS FOR YOUR ORALL!! :D
So, went for rehearsals again and ended pretty damn late. I just got back and had a bath. And now i think i have to do more work for the night god damn oh my god. I think i'm going to sing my ass off again. This is so stressful!! ): HAHAHAS :P OKAY LA ENOUGH GRUMBLING!! :D
-- You : Glad that you're doing fine with your friends! :D Although you know how is the best :P
-- Family : Seems like i'm recovering so i know you can't see this but don't worry anymore(:
-- Friends : You guys have been great this days, the usual few. Thank you so much bros, all the way! :D
-- Myself : Goodluck(:
Today was great! :D The day started off pretty mundane, the usual routine style of boring school life.. .__. Well, i can't imagine anyone thinking school is fun?!? I mean come on, 6 hours straight of non-stop books and then endless supplementaries throughout the week coupled with tedious and strenuous CCA practices for 5 days??? Students are practically mind-dead zombies at the end of the week... And then back into the fray after a pathetic mere 2 days break ( which is also occupied with CCA practices -.- ).
Anyways, i'm so glad that despite how i feel towards her, i'm able to look open-mindedly at stuff i never could do so before when we were together. That is something to be proud off :P And CONGRATS FOR YOUR ORALL!! :D
So, went for rehearsals again and ended pretty damn late. I just got back and had a bath. And now i think i have to do more work for the night god damn oh my god. I think i'm going to sing my ass off again. This is so stressful!! ): HAHAHAS :P OKAY LA ENOUGH GRUMBLING!! :D
-- You : Glad that you're doing fine with your friends! :D Although you know how is the best :P
-- Family : Seems like i'm recovering so i know you can't see this but don't worry anymore(:
-- Friends : You guys have been great this days, the usual few. Thank you so much bros, all the way! :D
-- Myself : Goodluck(:
7.7.10
TIRING AHH!!! ):
Hihihi :D
GOOD GOD OKAY!!! Freaking today was like worst than HELL. ): Hahahas, but still there were good things that came out of it uh. I'm so glad you're much better now, please don't worry about me laaa i'll definitely be fine because you wanted me to :D So anyways, lets get down to main part of the post :D
Work is piling up really rapidly. And i made a bad mistake not finishing my chinese letter damn it ): Now its one of the unfinished assignments i have and i absolutely HATE chinese !! ): Hahas, so anyways. I really have to finish up soon i think. But i should give myself plenty of rest as well if not nothing is going to work out well hahahas :D
Choir is really tiring. I just came back from practice today. Yes, it ended at late night. And we were like going up and down and staying at the rehearsal location for only half an hour.... .___. Sigh... LAME! :P
Yup so i figured that this feeling thats been tugging at my chest for so long is not so much negative. Its rather something positive. And like i want to hear what do you have to say to it, and all that (: So other than that, NOTHING ELSE IS BUGGING ME!!! :D
GOODNIGHT AND BYE!! :D
GOOD GOD OKAY!!! Freaking today was like worst than HELL. ): Hahahas, but still there were good things that came out of it uh. I'm so glad you're much better now, please don't worry about me laaa i'll definitely be fine because you wanted me to :D So anyways, lets get down to main part of the post :D
Work is piling up really rapidly. And i made a bad mistake not finishing my chinese letter damn it ): Now its one of the unfinished assignments i have and i absolutely HATE chinese !! ): Hahas, so anyways. I really have to finish up soon i think. But i should give myself plenty of rest as well if not nothing is going to work out well hahahas :D
Choir is really tiring. I just came back from practice today. Yes, it ended at late night. And we were like going up and down and staying at the rehearsal location for only half an hour.... .___. Sigh... LAME! :P
Yup so i figured that this feeling thats been tugging at my chest for so long is not so much negative. Its rather something positive. And like i want to hear what do you have to say to it, and all that (: So other than that, NOTHING ELSE IS BUGGING ME!!! :D
GOODNIGHT AND BYE!! :D
6.7.10
Posting again! :P
Hellooos (:
Haven't been able to text with wide smiles or msn with wide smiles recently. I guess i'm not used to giving them to just any friend, even best friends. Or maybe, i'm not completely over everything BUT i sure am doing very well :D
Singing songs is the BEST revenue to let stuff out manzxczc. Just pick a song which suits your emotions best and just sing your heart out, it feels really goooooodd :D Hahahahs, i really think i've grown wiser after this and i really will think through everything from now on. I'm thinking positive because of the book 7 people you meet in heaven. Not that i read it, but it explains stuff. Break ups, meet ups, are just events that concern people you MUST meet to prepare you for the journey ahead and the decisions you must make (: Yupyup, i've really learnt alot man (:
I think i'm going to pack up and go up to sleep soon. But maybe i'll try calling a friend (perhaps ZhengWei or Andrew) to talk to before sleeping. I know i should sleep because i'm going to have a longlong day tomorrow... ): hahahahs!! But its okay la i can do this!! :D I'm pretty sure after this week everything will settle down and i'll be a whole new person, for the better :D
Again, i really really thank you all for being there for me :D A new addition >> SARAH THAKER! :D HAHAHAS :D If you EVER read this ( i don't know how!! :P ) i bet you'll be on cloud nine :P HAHAS :D If not, i think its goodnights and byebye for today :D
Quote to people out there : Never lose hope, never dwell. Stand strong and think forward. Propelled by an invincible force of determination, anything can be achieved and overcame.
BUHBYEE!!! :D
Haven't been able to text with wide smiles or msn with wide smiles recently. I guess i'm not used to giving them to just any friend, even best friends. Or maybe, i'm not completely over everything BUT i sure am doing very well :D
Singing songs is the BEST revenue to let stuff out manzxczc. Just pick a song which suits your emotions best and just sing your heart out, it feels really goooooodd :D Hahahahs, i really think i've grown wiser after this and i really will think through everything from now on. I'm thinking positive because of the book 7 people you meet in heaven. Not that i read it, but it explains stuff. Break ups, meet ups, are just events that concern people you MUST meet to prepare you for the journey ahead and the decisions you must make (: Yupyup, i've really learnt alot man (:
I think i'm going to pack up and go up to sleep soon. But maybe i'll try calling a friend (perhaps ZhengWei or Andrew) to talk to before sleeping. I know i should sleep because i'm going to have a longlong day tomorrow... ): hahahahs!! But its okay la i can do this!! :D I'm pretty sure after this week everything will settle down and i'll be a whole new person, for the better :D
Again, i really really thank you all for being there for me :D A new addition >> SARAH THAKER! :D HAHAHAS :D If you EVER read this ( i don't know how!! :P ) i bet you'll be on cloud nine :P HAHAS :D If not, i think its goodnights and byebye for today :D
Quote to people out there : Never lose hope, never dwell. Stand strong and think forward. Propelled by an invincible force of determination, anything can be achieved and overcame.
BUHBYEE!!! :D
Gosh i'm tired ):
Hellos (:
School today was sorta weird. Had to get adapted to a new style of living and all hahas. (: Well, what can i say? Life is full of unexpected surprises. Sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it. But oh well, you seemed pretty much happy today so yes i shouldn't be bothering anymore :D
Anyways, the next few days will be spammed with choir practices and supplementaries. This week will be super draining and i hope i can pull through hahahas (: One thing to look forward to is Andrew's house LOL! Thats like some paradise (although is so run down :P). Hmm.... i just like to thank everyone who was there for me today :D Even though i don't have any religion to believe in or the like i still think this life is worth living. I mean look at all the possibilities that i could achieve in the near future!! :D And furthermore, our close friendship can still be salvaged i hope(: But even not, i wouldn't mind :D If fate made me enter her life to make her the happiest girl on the planet for only 3 months then 3 months it shall be(: But in anycase, thanks again!! Aaron Seah, Faiz, Andrew and many others this are just some to name :D
Oh and i have to do one chinese letter, print physics and delegate jobs for Math PW. Thats quite a lot of homework. But if i don't finish everything, i won't have time to rest OR finish MORE work that is inevitably going to come ): ): SCHOOL SUCKS THATS WHAT I'M SAYING!!!
OH OH AND!! My birthday is cominggggg :D :D :D :D I'll be celebrating with a couple of my best mates this sunday 11 July but my real birthday is on the 12th :D And my family will be bringing me out to eat :D Lets make them happy by showing them my appreciation (: Its the least i can do to repay them for being there for me so much and so long :D
If not, i think i shall zoom off to finish up my workload(: And if i'm bored later on, i MIGHT post again :D So for now, GOODBYE!!! :D
-- Friends : THANK YOU SO MUCH BROS :D
-- You : GLAD YOU'RE OKAY STAY THAT WAY :D
-- Family : 15 YEARS OF UNFAILING SUPPORT ROCKS :D
-- Myself : Lets do this (:
REALLY BYE!! :D
School today was sorta weird. Had to get adapted to a new style of living and all hahas. (: Well, what can i say? Life is full of unexpected surprises. Sometimes things don't turn out the way you want it. But oh well, you seemed pretty much happy today so yes i shouldn't be bothering anymore :D
Anyways, the next few days will be spammed with choir practices and supplementaries. This week will be super draining and i hope i can pull through hahahas (: One thing to look forward to is Andrew's house LOL! Thats like some paradise (although is so run down :P). Hmm.... i just like to thank everyone who was there for me today :D Even though i don't have any religion to believe in or the like i still think this life is worth living. I mean look at all the possibilities that i could achieve in the near future!! :D And furthermore, our close friendship can still be salvaged i hope(: But even not, i wouldn't mind :D If fate made me enter her life to make her the happiest girl on the planet for only 3 months then 3 months it shall be(: But in anycase, thanks again!! Aaron Seah, Faiz, Andrew and many others this are just some to name :D
Oh and i have to do one chinese letter, print physics and delegate jobs for Math PW. Thats quite a lot of homework. But if i don't finish everything, i won't have time to rest OR finish MORE work that is inevitably going to come ): ): SCHOOL SUCKS THATS WHAT I'M SAYING!!!
OH OH AND!! My birthday is cominggggg :D :D :D :D I'll be celebrating with a couple of my best mates this sunday 11 July but my real birthday is on the 12th :D And my family will be bringing me out to eat :D Lets make them happy by showing them my appreciation (: Its the least i can do to repay them for being there for me so much and so long :D
If not, i think i shall zoom off to finish up my workload(: And if i'm bored later on, i MIGHT post again :D So for now, GOODBYE!!! :D
-- Friends : THANK YOU SO MUCH BROS :D
-- You : GLAD YOU'RE OKAY STAY THAT WAY :D
-- Family : 15 YEARS OF UNFAILING SUPPORT ROCKS :D
-- Myself : Lets do this (:
REALLY BYE!! :D
5.7.10
Time flies, so does events.
Hey (:
Chilling out at Andrew's house now.... everything seems to be going on fine. I'm slowly getting over everything, and i just hope for the best for you. I hope you are being taken care by whoever i asked to do so for you, i'll be watching over you from a distance... (:
Singing songs and talking out our problems is a good way to pass the night. You've been a good friend to me man bro. Thanks for everything (:
Short post, i'm going to continue talking to him. Bye.
Chilling out at Andrew's house now.... everything seems to be going on fine. I'm slowly getting over everything, and i just hope for the best for you. I hope you are being taken care by whoever i asked to do so for you, i'll be watching over you from a distance... (:
Singing songs and talking out our problems is a good way to pass the night. You've been a good friend to me man bro. Thanks for everything (:
Short post, i'm going to continue talking to him. Bye.
One day felt like an eternity.
Lets go to more details i guess....
Woke up this morning at about 8+.... i didn't sleep much. Perhaps 4 hours? I think i might be suffering from Insomnia... but i guess i can't help it. And oh ya, i'm not eating well too. This really feels like shit. And it sucks all the more to know that my parents will scold/worry about this and i can't do anything about it. I just can't force the food down, i bet i would vomit it out again.
Studies are still fine, and that would never change. Its something thats like a lee-way from all of life's troubles. What was the irony? I used to think life was the lee-way from all of studies' troubles. Oh well, life sucks now. But what am i supposed to do?
I'm deciding whether or not to go over to Andrew's house again and spend the night there before coming back. Maybe i should, since i guess we both need each other. He is kinda troubled as well and i should be there for him like he was last night. Yup so.... i should be going over...
Still very troubled, and confused as to what to do. Tried calling her just now, her mum was surprisingly friendly, or rather she seemed to be? But as usual, she doesn't allow her to speak to me. But she did assure me that Abi was fine... so i guess i shouldn't worry.
I guess i'm well over it, its just the fact that i'm heartbroken inside. And i have no one to call my own. I don't have anyone which can love me and help me mend a broken wound. It was you that mended my wound Abi when i broke up with her, but now you are the one who broke my heart and i have no one to turn to. My parents were there, but it just won't be the same.
My legs are freaking aching, i ran my heart out. Sang my heart out. Or maybe, my heart was already out?? I don't know.... i miss the old times. But sometimes, i think its best to let go and put things down. Even when the seas finally settle, the waves will never stop pounding our distance to shreds. Sigh.... i'm just a husk filled with regret, remorse, and pain.
Goodbye again, shall post soon....
Woke up this morning at about 8+.... i didn't sleep much. Perhaps 4 hours? I think i might be suffering from Insomnia... but i guess i can't help it. And oh ya, i'm not eating well too. This really feels like shit. And it sucks all the more to know that my parents will scold/worry about this and i can't do anything about it. I just can't force the food down, i bet i would vomit it out again.
Studies are still fine, and that would never change. Its something thats like a lee-way from all of life's troubles. What was the irony? I used to think life was the lee-way from all of studies' troubles. Oh well, life sucks now. But what am i supposed to do?
I'm deciding whether or not to go over to Andrew's house again and spend the night there before coming back. Maybe i should, since i guess we both need each other. He is kinda troubled as well and i should be there for him like he was last night. Yup so.... i should be going over...
Still very troubled, and confused as to what to do. Tried calling her just now, her mum was surprisingly friendly, or rather she seemed to be? But as usual, she doesn't allow her to speak to me. But she did assure me that Abi was fine... so i guess i shouldn't worry.
I guess i'm well over it, its just the fact that i'm heartbroken inside. And i have no one to call my own. I don't have anyone which can love me and help me mend a broken wound. It was you that mended my wound Abi when i broke up with her, but now you are the one who broke my heart and i have no one to turn to. My parents were there, but it just won't be the same.
My legs are freaking aching, i ran my heart out. Sang my heart out. Or maybe, my heart was already out?? I don't know.... i miss the old times. But sometimes, i think its best to let go and put things down. Even when the seas finally settle, the waves will never stop pounding our distance to shreds. Sigh.... i'm just a husk filled with regret, remorse, and pain.
Goodbye again, shall post soon....
4.7.10
Tired :/
Hello(:
This few days have been really screwed up for me. And sad to say i'm not really over it yet. Well, i have to cope with lack of sleep and lack of meals now. Thats my main enemy, i'm really falling short on those. Its like i'm tired and i can't sleep. And when i do sleep i can only do so for 4 hours and then i'll wake up. Its like jet lag without going overseas -.- But anyways, part and parcel of a life time's experience i would say (:
So anyways, my studies have been going on fine though. Paid plenty of attention in class and my first week was super fruitful. More fruitful than i expected it to be...studies wise only. (: Sigh.....
I'm clueless as to what to do next, totally clueless. I guess its really hard to find things to do when your mind is so god damn occupied. But i did sleep over at andrew's house and i just got back. It was a nice revenue to let out my thoughts. He took me for a walk around his condo and i just said everything i wanted to.
I should really learn to treasure my parents more, They were the ones who stayed by me for 15 years and more to come without ever saying they don't love me anymore and all that. Regardless of what to do. I seriously neglected them badly, i'm just a big ass lump of regret....
But in anycase, regret can't do much. Moving on can. And i have to try to. There aren't many propellers for me to do so easily but i have to do it. Alone.
If you do read my blog still, know that i still think of us. I still miss you. And i wish Italy could come back. But then again, would this happen again? I don't know, fate cannot be changed, only tried. Believing in God was not enough, you did and thought he gave me to you, but in the end we had to part. Its sad, really sad.
Goodbye.
This few days have been really screwed up for me. And sad to say i'm not really over it yet. Well, i have to cope with lack of sleep and lack of meals now. Thats my main enemy, i'm really falling short on those. Its like i'm tired and i can't sleep. And when i do sleep i can only do so for 4 hours and then i'll wake up. Its like jet lag without going overseas -.- But anyways, part and parcel of a life time's experience i would say (:
So anyways, my studies have been going on fine though. Paid plenty of attention in class and my first week was super fruitful. More fruitful than i expected it to be...studies wise only. (: Sigh.....
I'm clueless as to what to do next, totally clueless. I guess its really hard to find things to do when your mind is so god damn occupied. But i did sleep over at andrew's house and i just got back. It was a nice revenue to let out my thoughts. He took me for a walk around his condo and i just said everything i wanted to.
I should really learn to treasure my parents more, They were the ones who stayed by me for 15 years and more to come without ever saying they don't love me anymore and all that. Regardless of what to do. I seriously neglected them badly, i'm just a big ass lump of regret....
But in anycase, regret can't do much. Moving on can. And i have to try to. There aren't many propellers for me to do so easily but i have to do it. Alone.
If you do read my blog still, know that i still think of us. I still miss you. And i wish Italy could come back. But then again, would this happen again? I don't know, fate cannot be changed, only tried. Believing in God was not enough, you did and thought he gave me to you, but in the end we had to part. Its sad, really sad.
Goodbye.
3.7.10
Crushed....
And now i know what does it feel like to have my whole world crashing down upon me.... Sigh.... why is this happening?? I don't know what went wrong.... You said you still cared? But then you're doing this to me... What about all the memories? What about all the things we've been through? We done it together.... But now you're just giving up on us.... I don't understand.
Some things really don't turn out the way we want it i suppose. I don't know where did all the promises go, and i'm really badly shaken by this. I don't even know how will i get over this.... i have to do it alone you know? Because i don't have friends like you do. Which makes it all the more harder.....
I don't know if i can ever get over you.... Goodbye...
Some things really don't turn out the way we want it i suppose. I don't know where did all the promises go, and i'm really badly shaken by this. I don't even know how will i get over this.... i have to do it alone you know? Because i don't have friends like you do. Which makes it all the more harder.....
I don't know if i can ever get over you.... Goodbye...
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