Just wanting you to come around, so won't you won't you heed.

Morning dew droplets, pitter pat the streets.I who would walk this earth, whoever shalt i meets.Same old faces or new found surfaces they would i greet.But come around again my dear, you would i need.

26.3.10

YOO!!!!

Supsup peeps. :D  Heh tonight TK choir is FLYINGGGGGG to ITALLEHHH oh yeaaaaaaa :P
Yea im like going so high over that and im so happy la cuz its like a MAJOR break from SG's rushed life and all of life's worries yea crap like that :P
And thanks guys for the concern you showed me today heh,altho it gets irritating sometimes so STOP WORRYING LOL! =p
But then iv decided to be a different person from now on, and i dun think people who dun care and dun listen have the right to be recognised by me any longer. Yea....that simple.(:
BUT ANWSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wish us luck for our Competition in Riva Del Garda hope we win the Grand Champss!!!!! :D:D:D:D:D:D
hahahas!!!
You 2 are awesome!!!!!!! ( goes out to my Sisters ) :P

25.3.10

Hai (:

yoyoyooooo~~~
Kay in short,today was perhaps the most interesting day in my life. but its okay everything is settled.
But for you guys' info,im single now so pls dun ask too much cuz im fine about it :D
Love you all who were concerned about me(:
Love you mum,dad,sis,bro and JieJie toooooo ~~~ <3
And thank you to YOU for not taking it too seriously (:
Anwsssss,gotta go sleeeep :D
Tmr to Italy it is!!!!:D
Nights! (:

24.3.10

Thanks,Loads.

Yo ppl,(: Uhm jus gotta say that im kinda depressed now? i mean not too bad but ya. I was lifted up by a few ppl who i will personally thank on this post later on.(: but anws, its like.....shouldnt teachers not take things personally? i mean draw the damn line damn it. ya....that simple. i mean its like, i do something and they take it personally and remember it for life or something? no right. yet thats what i see, and the strong refusal to listen to any explanation is totally outrageous and i cant stand it. but yet i have to. for several reasons best left not elaborated. furthermore, ridiculous assumptions made jus in an effort to support their own pathetic stands are is jus totally childish and immature of them. yea. thats all. but i guess i have to tolerate, they are my elders and seniors after all, i have to be a dog to them. its as far as that goes. I was so depressed, i was totally knocked down. Emotional stress levels 500%.  I couldnt even control my tears on the way back home with Dear, and it jus came out in front of her. i felt so weak,fragile, unable to do anything. Yet she stayed strong for me, and consoled me. for that alone, im very grateful and i appreciate what she has done for me. My mum and sis allowed me to vent my frustration to them, then talked to me before leaving me alone to ponder on stuff. That is also something i appreciated. Then JieJie too showed her concern several times today(:
Without all this people,i would have fallen down. Without this people i would have crumbled, Without this people i would have lost hope. But they stayed there for me, and i feel so touched,and loved. I feel that there are people who care for me, and i will do my best to stay alive for them.
To Dear: I love you, and i thank you for every~~thing that you have done for me(: <3
To JieJie: I love you too, and i wont forget how you have shown ur concern for me(: <3
To Mum and Sis: I love the both of you as well, despite how i always quarrel with you 2 and what you said to me today really enlightened me.
I love all of you(:   I will work hard from now, i Promise. by my word.(: <3

23.3.10

Tired.......

Haiiiiiiiii :D
Im super,duper,uber exhausted la gosh......fell sick yesterday so i didnt go to school today till 2.30. Well its cuz i had to get more rest and visit the doctor to let him prescribe medicine for me and all. I have a running nose,sore throat and a minor cough now and its such a bad timing. I didnt feel any better this morning when i woke up la gosh... coupled with the fact that Dear told me thr was loads of stuff to do and catch up today. I had to sing and then do my work which i missed and then when i came back, didnt rest and did my work till now. Im taking a break and i have to finish up my history later which thrs loads of stuff to do then i have to print out my work which takes years cause of a stupid laggish stone age com..... =.=
Ahhhh, i feel so bloody damn tired and i jus wanna collapse on my bed and sleep forever... ._____.
But Dear was thr for me throughout the whole day and i really thank her for that, despite me being sick she insisted on staying with me and that was really sweet la.(: <3 I love you dear :D :D:D !!!!
To dear : your doing a lot for me this way, really(: <3 i love youuu. 41568319681826377213327 :D

22.3.10

yoooooo(:

Hai peeps, mood is kinda neutral noww.so its not super high but not super depressed at the same time.Kay whatever =p
Anws, hmm today was kinda interesting?? started off the day with a meet up with my Dear in the canteen and i was like having to say Hi to everyone who walked past and i had to wave the entire duration they were walking past gosh.... .___.    Then, my Dear came and i really didnt notice her coming HAHA!! xD shes like minute laaaa her body structure!!(opps :P) So we made our way up together and spent a lil TMM time in the classroom keke :B  Then the bell rang and we moved down for assembly~~~ yadehyadeh everything was normal till hair check + hair cut = SUCK.  but nvm thr wasnt a big diff in my hair in the end so i dun really bother :P
Had some conflicts here and there with my dear but then left each other to cool down now and i hope shes fine :D PRAY UR FINE DEARRRRR~~~~~ <3 <3 <3 <3 !!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
hahahahahas!!!! im sick with a running nose and a sore throat ): !!!  Hope i get well soon,cant afford to not get well since i have a Competition coming sooon!!!!! urghhhh ._______.
But anws,off to do my own stuff now,update some other time!! toodles~~:D
To dear: i promised i will forget and be fine,i did it.(: becuz i love you dear.<3(:
To myself.: GET WELL SOON SAMUEL!!!:D

21.3.10

5 more dayysssssss :D

HAIIII PEOPLEE!!!!!!~~~~ :D:D:D:D:D
hahahahas, long time never post yaaaaa??? =p Hmm, have had the troubles and stress of pulling through several  events that didnt go the way i wanted it. But in anycase,with wit,will and perseverance i managed to handle them so here i am in one piece happy on cloud nine!!!!!!!!! :P
okayokay anws, things between me and Dear are going perfect nowww and i hope it stays this wayyy.im gonna try my bestttt to maintain thisssszxczczxczxc. Matters with my JieJie are kinda solved alr so yaaaa. :D
But one saddening thing is that tmr school reopen...): !!!!!! I mean,i dun wan school la omggg.all the projects and shit againn. I want ITALY TRIPP!!!!!!!!!! :D
its 5 more days to that and im gonna work really hard alr,i dun think thrs time to slack and im gonna make sure my section performs up to the standard they can do. :D i believe in them, i will have faith in them. Go Tenors!! :D
Hahahas,back to talk to my Dear againnn,cya next time!!
To Dear : Thank you for everything, sorry for everything as well.(: love you more than ever before.<3 (:

20.3.10

And to you as well (:

Dedicated to JieJie(dear, i thought this was only fair.no hard feelings(: <3 ) 
Dear Jiejie,
                  Thank you for actually being there for me all the time when i was down and all. I know its kinda tiring to always have to put up with all my nonsense and stuff like that, and i really thank you for everything(: I didnt expect our friendship to have grown so far but it sure had its good and bad times. Altho now everything is smooth-sailing and as it should be. This i thank my Dear and you for that.(: I just want you to know that i will be there for you too if you need me (: I will be there for all my loved ones and your one of them. (:  So jus forget about everything that has happened and jus remember that i am your Didi and your my Jiejie :D

Yours lovingly and sincerely,
Samuel-Didi (: 

19.3.10

Thank you Dear (:

Dedicated to my Dear and only her.(:
Dear Darling,
                     I know it has been hard on you ever since the quarrels started. I know i have let you down plenty of times before and often made u think if the chances you gave me was a mistake to begin with. I admit that i have wronged you before as well. But all this is gone alr, now that you have given me one last chance, i promise that i will never again make you feel like you made a mistake. I promise that i wont let you regret anything you said to me tonight. I promise that i will keep up my word and not break any promise i have made to you tonight. I promise that i will love you forever till death do us part. I promise that you will be my Dear forever and ever and ever. I promise that i love you. (:

Yours lovingly,
Samuel- Dear(: <3

Tormented.......

I am torn apart.I dunno what is thr left in this world for me to do.I try so hard to make the best for everyone, not wanting any one side to feel completely left out jus for the happiness of the other. But yet is anyone bothering to cooperate with me??? No. Its like whatever i do becomes redundant or useless and no one wants to accept my explanations or anything. I feel so bloody tormented,i want to die you know that? I would be more than glad to enter that cold void of nothing-ness. At least its eternal peace for myself,at least i can finally find what i need. A BREAK. i dun want anything of life anymore. The stress, the worries, the events, fuck it.i dun wan anything.i dun wanna care.i dun have the energy to do anything anymore. jus lemme go......

15.3.10

Joyyyyyy :D:D:D:D:D

Im happy :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
HAHAHAs,and high too hehe =x
Dunno leh,maybe cuz today was extraordinarily successful for meeeeee :P
Well for a start, came school earlier to meet my JieJie and we had a moderately short talk but it was nice la cuz its been long since we catched up =p
And then had male pracs which proved successful altho we forgot what we learnt during combines,had it refreshed before MrKwei came tho ( phew! =p)
Anws,after male pracs rushed to PP with Andrew and Clemence to meet Dear,Mel and Naz and we lunched together before rushing BACK to TKSS to resume full choir pracs!:D
Then aft pracs, me and Dear went for our own outing ( at a place we cant say =p ). It was marvellous la HAHA, LOVES TO YOU DEARRRR:D:D:D:D:D <3 <3 <3 <3
Then i sent dear home before going back tooo:D bathed ate dinner and am slacking nowwww:D
Shall go back to talking to my darlingggg~~~~ <3
Cya soon!!! :D
To dear: lovelove and more lovesss dearrrr <3(: :D:D:D:D

13.3.10

Fucking Pissed.

Sup guys......
Thrs loads of stuff bugging me now and its really breaking me down by chunks day by day.Its like so freaking stressful to be having all these matters on me.Imagine your head being 20kg heavy.Thats the feeling.
Im being damn stressed up now.damn fuckup now. its like i cant do anything to help on whats going on yet i know its partly my fault. and thrs actually no one i can tell this to so that he/she can talk to me about it becuz i dun wanna spread whats going on anymore. its jus too bloody complex.
Right now,all i can say is i rather pay that $2391 to not go Italy. I know i shouldnt be having such an attitude but im still having it.im having internal conflicts within myself and i hate it. Its churning up my whole system and i cant put my mind at peace now.
I dun have anything to vent my stress.anger,frustration on and i feel so awkward walking around.Its like,im hollow. fuck this,seriously jus fuck this. Fuck the world.Fuck the person who created it.Fuck everything thats causing me this.
Fuck myself.
bye.

12.3.10

Happy Events and a Fruitful Outcome =p

HAIIIII :D :D :D
Sorry for not postingggg,fell asleep last night =p =p =p
Anwsssss, today was quite a great day cept for a misunderstanding which is solved and now im closer to that person :P
Anws tired so shall be a short post.But had a great time with Dear <3
So anws, i shall end it off hereee.byesssss:D
To Dear : Love you loadsssss <3

10.3.10

:D:D:D

IM HAPPY TODAYYYYYYY =p
Well for several reasons better left un-elaborated for fear of losing control of myself la AHHH!!!
=p okayokay,enough madness.anws, started on the 1st session of PW.it was mad fun when we were doing it becuz Kian Hwee's grp was playing some video about the Crucification of Barney or smth and i was laughing my ass off.but other than that,it was becuz of the fact that the project will be super awesome!!! its about business laa omggggg.means after the tiring and boring part of doing proposals and planning u can start ordering TK TEAM STAFF around xDxDxD SUPER AWESOME MUCH!!:D
But anws, spent ALOT of time with my Dear and that made me happy tooooo.Altho im letting her rest earlier so that she can have plenty of sleep to prep for the upcoming tedious pracs. so thoughtful of me keke :B
So i sent her home after Choir Pracs today and i made my way home too.Was hungry so i found food to eat and  am slacking my brains off in front of the com =p Shall do my homework later HAHA.
Anws,off to wait for my dinner nowwww.:D:D:D:D
Cya soon people!!!
To Dear: loves again.love you loads.:D <3

9.3.10

Great!:D

HAIIII:D:D:D 
Today was a great day:D hahhas,especially when i finally gotta see Dear.she gave me a huge shock cuz she looked SOOOOO beautiful today.(: =p
Took some photos with her and Pearl :D
Then i sent Dear home and continued praying for a speedy recovery for herrrr.=p
Hmm, generally today was satisfying ESPECIALLY my english CT marks HAHA!!
Totally awesome ttm xD
but anws,busy nowww.gotta go settle my own stuffffffff.
Shall blog again soon!!
Cya!!:D
to dear: loving you forevrrrr,get well soon(: <3!!!

8.3.10

Praying.(:

Hey people, today was quite a pleasant day cept for some shitty results of CT.but who cares i give up comparing or whatever.if its meant to be its meant to be.im more focused on Choir and Other stuff now.(:
anws,hope my Dear recovers from her flu and fever fast.
To dear i pray that you will feel better soon and be able to come to school tmr. love you with all the strength i have(: pray with all the strength i have too.(: <3 <3 <3

7.3.10

Thank You.

This post is for my Dear and for my JieJie only.(:
JieJie: Thank you for cheering me up. I know you must be thinking that im still emo and all but dun worry.im fine.at least for now. the problems arnt solved yet so i cant cheer up completely either.but im still very grateful for what u have done for me tonight(:
Dear: You have always been thr for me.Rain or Shine for me u have been thr for me. ur like my Sunshine,always making me smile and always giving me the strength to do things.Without you im half of what i am. Without you im  less of what i am. I will always love you dear.(: <3

My Life Just Sucks.

One problem after another.solve one.another one comes up.solve that one,yet another drives up.the hell is wrong with my life man seriously.so many things to worry about and so many things to take into this body of a 15 year old.must i really learn to mature further than my age allows me to so that i can take this things easily.i dun understand whats going on man.i mean im trying my best but im jus 15 damn it,some one save me god damn it.save me.....:/

Stressed up big time......

Hey......:/
I dunno what is wrong with me man,im like so hogged up over old things that have been talked about so many times over and over and i jus cant seem to get over it.whenever something triggers it everything jus goes boom like a volcano and all the unwanted emotions jus erupt.i dunno how to cope with this.i dunno when its gonna end??but i really want it to end. and i really wish i can find a solution to this.i really wish i can have a break from all these. i really need Holidays.i really need Choir.i really need Italy Trip. i really need a major breakdown. i really need you and your cooperation Dear.thats most impt. i hope u get what i mean. Be as it may,i have to tolerate with all this stuff for a long time to come before it finally fades off into history.
Sorry for this longggg lamenting post.will be away noww. trying to stabilise myself.
Byes.

6.3.10

Hmm......

Hihi people!! today's post shall be about the day's happenings =p
Well it started off at 8.50 with choir pracsss.well was not as satisfying as i hoped and i got very pissed at myself for not being able to do anything to help when the squabbles began.it was so horrible la when i overheard it :/ i jus wish i can do something about this. i shall have to wait till the Italy Trip is over and hope its a success(:
But anws, after the prac we celebrated Andrew's birthday and i pushed him to hug N HAHAHA =p It was such a sweet scene la!!!! then me,Dear,Andrew and Nazurah proceeded to Parkway to have our dinner even tho the delicious cake alr filled our stomaches =p We talked for awhile then A and N went home. Me and Dear then walked around PP for awhile before going off too.(:
To Dear: We had a great time today dear, thank you (: <3
For TKchoir: I hope everything will turn out well.....

5.3.10

IM BACKKK:D

Yoyoyo check it out!!! =p
Im back from my Cohort Camp like FINALLY.It was awesome fun BUT at the same time SUPER tiring and DIRTY LOL. we participated in many challenging and sadly to admit it, SCARY activities like a SUPER steep hill trek or stuff like Skywalks and Obstacle courses.Most fun was actually the CIP work we did for service learning.BUILDING CHICKEN COOPS.i found out that im a talented saw-er AND hammer-er =p hahha!! i even made swords out of wood but could not bring it across the customs ): ): ):
BUTTTTT,tht was lots of Caps and now its down to the joy of coming back home:P
That feeling is like totally nostalgic but marvellous as well. im like super on cloud nine now despite my headache=p
But nevertheless,getting to have intimate time with Dear( =p <3) and talking to JieJie again are stuff that really contribute to my joy of being back in SG.:D
Have pracs tmr hope its a success:D
To JieJie : Dun worry bout row sectionals, u will do fine:D
To Dear : ILoveYou,feel this camp made us closer by much:D:D <3
Cya next time peeps,time for me to go watch MANGA and ANIME:D:D:D:D:D

1.3.10

HAPPYYY!!!!

HIHIHIIII:D:D
Well the problems i had jus got solved!!!! so my mood is totally turned back up againn!!!!:D:D
YIPEEEE!!!:D:D
Hope Cohort Camp doesnt screw balls for me =p
gotta go nowww,entertain my dearrrrrr<3
Byeeeeee~~

Not feeling good :/

Heyy fellows,not feeling so good today so i will make this short.(:
Loads of crap happened today and my mood is really badly affected:/
Altho i have forgotten bout some stuff but my primary concerns are still thr,i hope it can be rectified soon.
*Dear,pls cheer up soon.i want to see your smiles again(: loveyou so much,<3*
And to all who worried,im terribly sorry(: will not make it happen again(:
Sigh....gotta go now.ponder on stuff(:
byeee.~~