Hello! (:
Its late, and i should be asleep by now! Just a short post, anyway i don't have much to say :P
Haha sooooo, concert is over!! Coro Di Signori ! :D Hahah, i would say our performance was average..? Not too good but not too bad either la (: Hahahaha, theres is post-concert party at Mr Kwei's house tomorrow! I'm still putting in thought about why i'm the only Secondary school boy to be invited.... Oh well! haha! Very tired, but at least without the concert its one less thing to worry about (: Haha! Okay i shall go sleep now, really tired .___. BYE! (:
18.12.10
12.12.10
Yet another wave....
Hi.
Okay i'm just back from voice class. My voice is kinda screwed, as usual. Its probably because of the number of hours i'm expending it and now i'm seeing the consequences. It shouldn't be happening, its probably because of insufficient sleeping hours and a lack of BREAKS.
Past few days have been pretty busy and hectic, was such, is now, shall be. Nothing is ever going to change, i tell myself. Because why? I'm probably freaking cursed. I haven't been able to tell myself, "FINALLY. A GOD DAMN BREAK." No, never since the beginning of EOYs. Its like an endless roll. Sigh. I have a shit load of songs to memorise in 3 days, what one a day? You gotta be kidding me. You're the epitome of someone who ask for too FUCKING much. -.- Yea, whatever. This blog is privated for a reason.
Going to class chalet later, hope its going to be fun enough to make me glue my ass there and relax myself. I really need it, the relaxation. Stupid thing is very few of my good friends are going so yeap. Retarded. Parents are going to leave from 14-21, which means in this week i'll have to settle all my stuff myself. Honestly, from all the independence i've always been begging for, i'm not going to be used to managing everything. No one to blame but myself, i've always been rather dependent on my parents. Getting used to self-transport now though. I pray that the concert and my next voice lesson will be good.
Last but not least, dreaded homework. Haven't touched it yet, probably going to start from 27 onwards. Should be enough time, since i'm not planning to finish everything. I've totally, lost touch i tell you. Like totally. I don't think i even know..... yea, i can't even name a chapter now -.- Ah whatever, i'm SO stressed up now. My shoulders are rock hard. LOL! Okay whatever, bye.
Okay i'm just back from voice class. My voice is kinda screwed, as usual. Its probably because of the number of hours i'm expending it and now i'm seeing the consequences. It shouldn't be happening, its probably because of insufficient sleeping hours and a lack of BREAKS.
Past few days have been pretty busy and hectic, was such, is now, shall be. Nothing is ever going to change, i tell myself. Because why? I'm probably freaking cursed. I haven't been able to tell myself, "FINALLY. A GOD DAMN BREAK." No, never since the beginning of EOYs. Its like an endless roll. Sigh. I have a shit load of songs to memorise in 3 days, what one a day? You gotta be kidding me. You're the epitome of someone who ask for too FUCKING much. -.- Yea, whatever. This blog is privated for a reason.
Going to class chalet later, hope its going to be fun enough to make me glue my ass there and relax myself. I really need it, the relaxation. Stupid thing is very few of my good friends are going so yeap. Retarded. Parents are going to leave from 14-21, which means in this week i'll have to settle all my stuff myself. Honestly, from all the independence i've always been begging for, i'm not going to be used to managing everything. No one to blame but myself, i've always been rather dependent on my parents. Getting used to self-transport now though. I pray that the concert and my next voice lesson will be good.
Last but not least, dreaded homework. Haven't touched it yet, probably going to start from 27 onwards. Should be enough time, since i'm not planning to finish everything. I've totally, lost touch i tell you. Like totally. I don't think i even know..... yea, i can't even name a chapter now -.- Ah whatever, i'm SO stressed up now. My shoulders are rock hard. LOL! Okay whatever, bye.
Drink! Drink! Drink!
Hello. :)
A smile like this, :) , looks nicer than a smile like this, (: . Perhaps its cause, i'm right inclined. Haha. So anyways, since the last post i've been pretty much okay. But no, not better than before... .__.
Lets begin with portdickson trip, it was quite fun to be honest. Despite terrible accomodations, my room and I made it through and i'm glad to say our batch really bonded a shit load more than before. So now everyone's pretty much closer than before, especially my room mates and I (: Was very tiring and stressful, but yea still fine.
I'm still busy and all that as usual, with solo(s) and vocal consort. Really a lot of things to do, and theres a lot of caroling sessions coming up together with homework. Urgh, homework. Gotta admit, screw it cause i don't wanna do it. Sigh. I'm tired, my voice is tired, my life is tired. I need a BREAK.
Ah well, guess i can wait long long for it. School will re-open in a jiffy, sad to say. Then theres O'levels with Vocal Consort and Solo Classes to juggle with and SYF for TKchoir. Hope everything goes well. Another year of zoom-zoom-pow. Oh yes, VJC DSA. Lets hope THAT goes well. Byebye.
To eyes that are bright, the stars that are shining on me.
A smile like this, :) , looks nicer than a smile like this, (: . Perhaps its cause, i'm right inclined. Haha. So anyways, since the last post i've been pretty much okay. But no, not better than before... .__.
Lets begin with portdickson trip, it was quite fun to be honest. Despite terrible accomodations, my room and I made it through and i'm glad to say our batch really bonded a shit load more than before. So now everyone's pretty much closer than before, especially my room mates and I (: Was very tiring and stressful, but yea still fine.
I'm still busy and all that as usual, with solo(s) and vocal consort. Really a lot of things to do, and theres a lot of caroling sessions coming up together with homework. Urgh, homework. Gotta admit, screw it cause i don't wanna do it. Sigh. I'm tired, my voice is tired, my life is tired. I need a BREAK.
Ah well, guess i can wait long long for it. School will re-open in a jiffy, sad to say. Then theres O'levels with Vocal Consort and Solo Classes to juggle with and SYF for TKchoir. Hope everything goes well. Another year of zoom-zoom-pow. Oh yes, VJC DSA. Lets hope THAT goes well. Byebye.
To eyes that are bright, the stars that are shining on me.
2.12.10
Why then?
Hello.
The storm as just passed. I got over the vocal exams pretty okay yesterday, i'm glad to say its finally finished. There will be more to come, but i swear i would be ten-fold more prepared for it. Thing is, thats not the storm i was talking about. In fact, i can't give a pinky's matter about it. Something else is bothering me, and i don't like it where its going.
Just quarreled with my Mum. Big time. Its not been long since so, but this recent one made me wonder. Surprisingly, i gave in my stand pretty quick and titled myself as useless junk. I don't know, i probably feel that i let her down for shouting so much and being pretty much a selfish bastard. I mean, i have this 'thing' in me and i always require her assistance to help 'clean up' and its just because i'm afraid i trigger that thing from happening again and having to go through the same troubles. I quarreled with her over that, despite what? Despite her having seams all over after her recent operation. Am i that fucked up? I wonder so much. Maybe i'm just useless? I don't know either. Whats the point of being so successful in games, CCA, and studies mayhap, if i cannot even handle and juggle my family issues properly.... This is ridiculous and i hate myself so much.
I.... guess i need to do a lot more reflection. Even now, she is cooking. Should i even have the heart to touch the food she is preparing? The sky is crying with me on this side of the world, the thunder and lightning like the turmoil that rages inside me. I feel so demented and depressed. And whats worst? Theres not a soul in the world who would understand this pain. Mayhap my brother could talk to me, but what good would it do? I don't know what to say. I just feel like letting out all the breath inside me and die with this dreaded world behind my back.
I suppose theres nothing else i feel like ranting anymore. Sorry for this rather depressing post, after a long hiatus. Goodbye people.
For naught would thy pain carry thy's suffering?
The storm as just passed. I got over the vocal exams pretty okay yesterday, i'm glad to say its finally finished. There will be more to come, but i swear i would be ten-fold more prepared for it. Thing is, thats not the storm i was talking about. In fact, i can't give a pinky's matter about it. Something else is bothering me, and i don't like it where its going.
Just quarreled with my Mum. Big time. Its not been long since so, but this recent one made me wonder. Surprisingly, i gave in my stand pretty quick and titled myself as useless junk. I don't know, i probably feel that i let her down for shouting so much and being pretty much a selfish bastard. I mean, i have this 'thing' in me and i always require her assistance to help 'clean up' and its just because i'm afraid i trigger that thing from happening again and having to go through the same troubles. I quarreled with her over that, despite what? Despite her having seams all over after her recent operation. Am i that fucked up? I wonder so much. Maybe i'm just useless? I don't know either. Whats the point of being so successful in games, CCA, and studies mayhap, if i cannot even handle and juggle my family issues properly.... This is ridiculous and i hate myself so much.
I.... guess i need to do a lot more reflection. Even now, she is cooking. Should i even have the heart to touch the food she is preparing? The sky is crying with me on this side of the world, the thunder and lightning like the turmoil that rages inside me. I feel so demented and depressed. And whats worst? Theres not a soul in the world who would understand this pain. Mayhap my brother could talk to me, but what good would it do? I don't know what to say. I just feel like letting out all the breath inside me and die with this dreaded world behind my back.
I suppose theres nothing else i feel like ranting anymore. Sorry for this rather depressing post, after a long hiatus. Goodbye people.
For naught would thy pain carry thy's suffering?
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