Please.

Could i not think of it so much?

             I've got to say this year passed really quick. Much to the unexpected, it was quite bumpy along the way, but i suppose me posting here and having had happy days is a sign of my making through everything (: But still, the end doesn't justify the final.

             Ya know they have a phrase, expect the unexpected. Sometimes, and this is one of the times, that phrase really applies. I relate to it so much, so much, that i'm nothing but doubtful of myself. Should i be sad? Should i be oblivious? Should i be in despair? Or should i just be strong? Theres so many choices, but never forgetting the unfairness of life, fate makes the negative decisions so much easier to accept into our fragile minds.

             Would i but have predicted this outcome, i would have paid more heed to my loved ones. Now one of them might be about to go once diagnosed positive with a status ailment. Sigh.... Why? How? When? What? Wouldn't anyone answer me? I doubt so.

             I guess nothing but blabber wouldn't work, i have a long day ahead of me, a long road ahead of me. I yearn with all my strength to have the will to last through, and i pray every night that she would make it. I will believe in her faith, and pray she won't go...

            I have to go now, to sleep. I have been happy before, don't worry 'bout that (: Ere the time comes, i shall be joyous yet once more. But not now, for now i have a lot of pondering to do. School will take my mind off the troubles. Alright, thats all for tonight. Its been a long time since i posted i know, and i'm terribly sorry that an update had to be this downcast. My humblest farewell, friends.

Can the night, take me away, once more. 

HAPPY IS THE ME.

Hello!! :D

                    HAHA exams have endeddddd!!!!!! :D :D That means NO STUDY, NO STRESS, NO ACADEMIC SCHEDULES TO STICK, that also means MORE SLEEP, ALL GAMES, ALL FUN, ALL RELAXING!! YEAAAA :D

                     LOL that was weird :P Hahaha, i wanted to revive this blog when i was reminded of it by the bookmark i placed on my com (: So that it wouldn't be dead! This blog DID pull me through tough times before, so i shan't let it down :D

                    But really i'm not in a 'stable' mood to post :P I'm feeling all gaming now and i'm gonna try out a new game as i end this post (: Yupyup, just watched new bleach anime ! (: Hahaha, the life is good mannn. I hope i don't screw up tomorrow's practice with Ben and Ken and the auditions on Friday (: BYE! (:

Diary of a Pillaged Teenager.

Hello (:

                     I'm in the mood to post tonight hahaha (: So, the exams have been really hectic for me this few weeks. But i'm really glad to say that i've made it past the tough papers, now all thats left is to mug and maximise the remaining papers and really just do my best for the exams (: I've gotta say, this is the first time i've actually had such a good feeling for my exams. Hope it converts to reality ! (:

                      Thats for academics... life has been really slowing down. No more love shit, no more funny troubles at home, no more retarded random bullcrap cropping up in the middle of the night or in school. I'm glad to say i've made a very nice system of friends and i really treasure all of them. As for relationships... i may or may not like a girl but it doesn't matter too much to me right now (: I think i want things to stay this way... simple and contented (:

                       I've lots of plans after exams, although now that i think of it it could've been better (: One of the best and most certain things, would be to just lay back and think of everything that has happened this year. I can't put my finger as to why i always want to do that, but i hazard its probably because i need to catch a breather. I haven't been able to feel alive/energetic for a long, long time now. Every morning its waking up to an even more exhausted and tired atmosphere. Its like the very day itself is draining at me. Problematic .__.

                       I planned to study tonight, but i think i'm too damn exhausted to do anything. Which is pathetic, i guess i'll have to start tomorrow then... Sigh. SIGH SIGH SIGH. I don't know how many times i can sigh okay, oh my god. Oh wait, i don't have a god anyway. Lol -.-

                       Urgh, this rambling is really pulling me down. But i really want to just write my ass off on this blog for this post, and just say whatever i want to say for tonight. Never mind, i shall be off now. Bye.

I love you, but lets just leave things as it is. 

Dilemmas suck.

Yo (:

                   Okay i'm supposed to have been revising History for the whole day and tomorrow but it seems like my lazy ass self was too... well, lazy, to get off my games, songs and bed/books to start on any revision :/ So there we go, one night away. I don't even know what to study anyway, apart from Rise of Fascism in Japan... Ah ah ah haiya...

                    Yeapp so... right now i'm really in a dilemma as my title says. I don't even know what songs to pick for Lunchtime Showcase since they aren't even being generous with the performance time. Less than 2 songs? Thats really hilarious or ridiculous, pick one. Gosh. And just when i thought when nothing was going to be stressed up. Shit man... and one last factor would be that my voice sucks balls. I know a lot of people don't agree but still... yea.

                     Feel like playing some games before i have a slightly earlier night. Tomorrow is two chinese papers, PRAY to god its good. I don't even remember some of my formats... Better freshen up on them tomorrow morning or something. I'm sorry this post is rather downcast. Bye.

Pain when you know it, Hurt when you feel it.

I guess a day has its moodswings.

                  The nap was okay, although i kinda slept too long. But whatever the heck. I'm really not in a good mood now. Bye. :/

You really know when the sun rises.

Hello (:

                Hmm, i'm feeling better from yesterday hahha. I think its because the papers this few days have been great! :D I didn't expect TODAY's paper(actually just SS) to be good but i guess i have to admit it was (: So yea, studies ain't affecting my mood right now! :D

                 Came back early and i just had a very very good lunch hahaha. And after i post and play some games i shall go and have a nice sleep before waking up and... studying .__. LOL. But its okay la i'll survive! :D

                  Hehe, don't really feeling like posting nowwwww. So i shall be off, MIGHT post later or tomorrow (: BYE [:

As it comes, As it goes.

Hey.

             Gahh... not feeling really good now. Possibly its because i'm not having the motivation to study. I postponed my geography revision to tomorrow, meaning if i don't study then i'm doomed. And there goes my A1 for geog which i promised to Ms Yap. I have to do it, so i will. Same goes for chem too, an A1 for chem and no less... Sigh. Why must there be so much stress? So much work? So much fog in the near future? Why so many questions, Samuel.

              And yet i know, its probably because i'm baffled too. But could i prognosticate or try to predict anything? I don't want to, i don't want to be disappointed. Here in my family are incessant arguments raging non-stop, when the hell will everything stop? Fuck. I hate it. And i'm sandwiched in the middle without a clue of what the heck am i supposed to do. Is anybody able to hear me? I want you to, but i guess you don't know how i feel. Yet i don't know how to show you/tell you. Sigh....

              I think its the first time i'm ever feeling like that. Yet i know, its not the worst of the hardships that i'll have to be steeped in sooner or later. Perhaps i should just get used to it, and as this blog's title says. As it comes, As it goes. I should just take it as it comes, and let it go when its going to. I feel so depressed, and doubtful of the next thing that will happen.

              Waiting for my dinner now.... and then i'll go on to revise E math and SS and then sleep. I need to rest up real good for the upcoming 5 days of exams. Then another 3-4 days and its all over.... I need a light to show me the way. I used to have one, now my light isn't even facing me. LOL. .__. Alright anyway, i won't be so heartless as to drag you guys on through this soulless god-forsaken ranting. *SIGH* Bye.. [:

I still have what you wanted the other time, but would you want it now...? 

It has begun.

Hello again people (:

                       Hmm, surprisingly i have time to blog. I guess its because i'm taking some time off, shall be napping later before studying! :D I know its damn late already but who gives a shit! I do what i like to :P

                        So, today was pretty nice (: The papers were decent and i found my own performance at them satisfactory. Especially paper 1 for english! I think i wrote well, and i have high hopes for the marks (: SPA exams was surprisingly easy, although i was quite careless for physics at the start hehehe :P But its okay since i still managed to do it well! :D The break between English and SPA was awesomely fantastic :D <3

                         Hmm... don't know why i'm like that but its the first time i'm actually finding myself loving some one from a distance. I don't know how long this feeling will last anyway... But she has her eyes on some one else and all i can do is hope (: that she'll see who can really be there for her i mean (: hahaha... okayokay enough of that (:

                          LTSC will be awesome, i know it! :D Songs have been decided and everything so yupyup. Ah sigh, i've nothing much to post about, honestly .__. Shall be off now! Thank you for reading this tiresome post ._. Bye [:

Can you see me here, dear?