Please.

Could i not think of it so much?

             I've got to say this year passed really quick. Much to the unexpected, it was quite bumpy along the way, but i suppose me posting here and having had happy days is a sign of my making through everything (: But still, the end doesn't justify the final.

             Ya know they have a phrase, expect the unexpected. Sometimes, and this is one of the times, that phrase really applies. I relate to it so much, so much, that i'm nothing but doubtful of myself. Should i be sad? Should i be oblivious? Should i be in despair? Or should i just be strong? Theres so many choices, but never forgetting the unfairness of life, fate makes the negative decisions so much easier to accept into our fragile minds.

             Would i but have predicted this outcome, i would have paid more heed to my loved ones. Now one of them might be about to go once diagnosed positive with a status ailment. Sigh.... Why? How? When? What? Wouldn't anyone answer me? I doubt so.

             I guess nothing but blabber wouldn't work, i have a long day ahead of me, a long road ahead of me. I yearn with all my strength to have the will to last through, and i pray every night that she would make it. I will believe in her faith, and pray she won't go...

            I have to go now, to sleep. I have been happy before, don't worry 'bout that (: Ere the time comes, i shall be joyous yet once more. But not now, for now i have a lot of pondering to do. School will take my mind off the troubles. Alright, thats all for tonight. Its been a long time since i posted i know, and i'm terribly sorry that an update had to be this downcast. My humblest farewell, friends.

Can the night, take me away, once more. 

HAPPY IS THE ME.

Hello!! :D

                    HAHA exams have endeddddd!!!!!! :D :D That means NO STUDY, NO STRESS, NO ACADEMIC SCHEDULES TO STICK, that also means MORE SLEEP, ALL GAMES, ALL FUN, ALL RELAXING!! YEAAAA :D

                     LOL that was weird :P Hahaha, i wanted to revive this blog when i was reminded of it by the bookmark i placed on my com (: So that it wouldn't be dead! This blog DID pull me through tough times before, so i shan't let it down :D

                    But really i'm not in a 'stable' mood to post :P I'm feeling all gaming now and i'm gonna try out a new game as i end this post (: Yupyup, just watched new bleach anime ! (: Hahaha, the life is good mannn. I hope i don't screw up tomorrow's practice with Ben and Ken and the auditions on Friday (: BYE! (:

Diary of a Pillaged Teenager.

Hello (:

                     I'm in the mood to post tonight hahaha (: So, the exams have been really hectic for me this few weeks. But i'm really glad to say that i've made it past the tough papers, now all thats left is to mug and maximise the remaining papers and really just do my best for the exams (: I've gotta say, this is the first time i've actually had such a good feeling for my exams. Hope it converts to reality ! (:

                      Thats for academics... life has been really slowing down. No more love shit, no more funny troubles at home, no more retarded random bullcrap cropping up in the middle of the night or in school. I'm glad to say i've made a very nice system of friends and i really treasure all of them. As for relationships... i may or may not like a girl but it doesn't matter too much to me right now (: I think i want things to stay this way... simple and contented (:

                       I've lots of plans after exams, although now that i think of it it could've been better (: One of the best and most certain things, would be to just lay back and think of everything that has happened this year. I can't put my finger as to why i always want to do that, but i hazard its probably because i need to catch a breather. I haven't been able to feel alive/energetic for a long, long time now. Every morning its waking up to an even more exhausted and tired atmosphere. Its like the very day itself is draining at me. Problematic .__.

                       I planned to study tonight, but i think i'm too damn exhausted to do anything. Which is pathetic, i guess i'll have to start tomorrow then... Sigh. SIGH SIGH SIGH. I don't know how many times i can sigh okay, oh my god. Oh wait, i don't have a god anyway. Lol -.-

                       Urgh, this rambling is really pulling me down. But i really want to just write my ass off on this blog for this post, and just say whatever i want to say for tonight. Never mind, i shall be off now. Bye.

I love you, but lets just leave things as it is.